De-ja-vu

-COACH-DIE-HARD- I cant believe I had a post about this bag. Now, am I a proud owner of it? Hmm.. Maher Zain Awaken Lyrics

We were given so many prizes We changed the desert into oasis We built buildings of different lengths and sizes And we felt so very satisfied

We bought and bought We couldn’t stop buying We gave charity to the poor ’cause We couldn’t stand their crying We thought we paid our dues But in fact To ourselves we’re just lying

Oh…I’m walking with my head lowered in shame from my place I’m walking with my head lowered from my race Yes it’s easy to blame everything on the west When in fact all focus should be on ourselves

We were told what to buy and we’d bought We went to London, Paris and Costa del Sol We made show we were seen in the most exlusive shops Yes we felt so very satisfied

We felt our money gave us infinite power We forgot to teach our children about history and honor We didn’t have any time to lose When we were.. (were) So busy feeling so satisfied

I’m walking with my head lowered in shame from my place I’m walking with my head lowered from my race Yes it’s easy to blame everything on the west When in fact all focus should be on ourselves

We became the visuals without a soul despite the heat Our homes felt so empty and cold To fill the emptiness We bought and bought Maybe all the fancy cars And bling will make us feel satisfied

My dear brother and sister It’s time to change inside Open your eyes Don’t throw away what’s right aside Before the day comes When there’s nowhere to run and hide Now ask yourself ’cause Allah’s watching you

Is He satisfied? Is Allah satisfied? Is Allah satisfied? Is Allah satisfied?

Oh..I’m walking with my head lowered in shame from my place I’m walking with my head lowered from my race Yes it’s easy to blame everything on the west When in fact all focus should be on ourselves

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I am asking my self. Am I really satisfied? Is Allah satisfied?

You know the obvious answer for this.

Salam Maal HIjrah

Seringkali kita terfikir, bagaimana mulia dan bersihnya hati Nabi, tetap senyum bila dibenci, tetap tenang bila dimusuhi, tetap membantu walau disakiti, tetap menyeru walau diusir pergi.... Kenapa kita mudah membenci bila dikasari, mudah putus asa bila yang dilakukan tak menjadi, mudah kecewa bila orang lain tak memahami, mudah terguris bila dilukai...... Ayuh kita tarbiah diri, agar segala yang indah menghiasi peribadi, kerana qudwah kita adalah Nabi,itulah sifat hamba Allah yang hakiki SALAM MAAL HIJRAH 1431

Love always wins.

Its my love to The Almighty.

My love to my mother, my father, my family, and my dearest ones. Until I get myself a husband, my love will be for him as well.

Don't tell me that love hurts. Then, you know nothing about love. Its like a boxing fight where you always want to win. You keep on fighting, till you get hurt. But love will win you over. Give in to love, than you will know the meaning of loving others.

Love for the sake of The Most Loving.

We will die. But not the relationship. Especially the relationship of aqeedah that bounds us forever. If you Love, based purely on nafs, then you'll face the consequences. Do not blame other for thy own mistakes. I love you, because of Allah. Whoever you are, wherever you are.

優子

優子　

（ゆうこ-Yuko)

Yuko is a name given to me by my friend Yoshihito, when I told him the meaning of my name, Nadiah.

Nadiah- has different meaning in different languages. For example,

ناديه

Arabic name meaning "delicate, tender", " the beginning, first", and "Honourable".

I read somewhere that the name also means, "one who brings loyalty"(pembawa kesetiaan)", which leads to the meaning, "helper". English form of French, Slavic, Russian, meaning "hope."

"One who is full of hope."

and African meaning of the name Nadia, is "caller".

Wow.

So many meaning in a name, yet to be fulfilled. As a bearer of this name, I can feel the responsibility that comes with it. ^-^" So, whats with Yuko?

優

役者（one who play a part)　・　やさしい　（tender-hearted）・　しとやか（graceful） 　　　のびやか　・　すぐれる（excellent）・まさる（excel, surpass）・　ゆたか（abundant, rich of）

子　

子という漢字は「一」と「了」という字からできています。

つまり「最初」から「最後」までと読むことができ大変縁起のよい文字なのです。

なのでかなり昔から天皇家は女児に「子」という字を入れるようにしていたそうです。

-Ko means, child. But the kanji it self means the first and the last.

I like the name. I really do. ^-^*

やり直す

お待たせーていうか、お待たせしました！

Hehe・・・ Assalamualaikum,

It has been a while kan? It shows how much unorganized I was this past few months.

I realized that writing a blog isn't as easy as it was before.

Perlu fikir apa nak tulis.

Perlu fikir nak cakap pada siapa. Siapa yang akan baca.

Perlu fikir nanti apa orang kata.

やっぱーめんどくさかった。

(sesungguhnya sungguh menyusahkan)

But it has really been a while and I do miss blogging. >_<"

I think I'll give this page a new face, and yeah, my daily life as well. I really need to get back on track. Lately everything is all over the place. 2 days ago, I almost forgot that I'm going to have a paper and a presentation this week. Wargh! 何やってんだよ！

Taubat Bintangku?

Beramai-ramai kami mendengar istighfar ini dalam kereta kemarin. Dengan huru-hara adik-adik yang sudah terbiasa, tiba-tiba terdengar satu suara dari belakang. "

Asyik taubatan nasuha je, taubatan nassry la pulak!", pekik si Nasrry. "Haha, jeles nama dia tak ada!", balas si Nasuha; adik yang ke-7.

Apa maksud Nassry ya? Tertanya-tanya la pulak saya di depan.

"Nassry tu bintangku la. Macam mana pulak jadi taubatan nassry,"perjelas bonda.

Sampai hari ni, nassry bila istighfar, dia tukar nama dia. Ssuka hati je! T-T"

Selepas 3 minggu.

Pagi ini akan bertolak pulang semula ke Malaysia, setelah seminggu berhempas pulas membawa ayah berjalan-jalan di Jepun.Tak sabar rasanya nak sampai rumah, dan goyang kaki di depan tv. Tapi angan-angan saja- kali ini kerana perlu bawak rakan-rakan Jepun pula pusing Malaysia. Malam ini tak tidur lagi la nampaknya kalau nak sempat kejar kereta-api jam 8 pagi. Teringat waktu dengan Iman, 'bermalam' di karaoke-kan takut terlepas densya(train). Ayah dah lama tidur. Penat. Memang penat pun. Selepas buka puasa di kedai sushi depan rumah tadi, selepas isyak kami terus ke Shibuya. Nak melihat sendiri X crossing kata ayah. Tempat dimana ribuan manusia melintas jalan. Tempat dimana bonda pernah tinggal satu ketika dulu. Tempat dimana saya akan meneruskan pelajaran untuk 2 tahun terakhir di sini. Berkejar kesana kemari, namun masa tak mengizinkan ayah pergi ke Tsukiji-ichiba. Pasar borong ikan terbesar didunia. Susah nak biarkan ayah pergi seorang diri. Ini Jepun. Terasa bertanggungjawab kerana dia berada disini, kerana saya. Masa tak mengizinkan saya untuk bertemu rakan2 seperjuangan di Omiya hari ini. Hati terasa sungguh berat. Bila lagi..? Bila lagi..? Ayah, mungkin akan kesini lagi, atau mungkin tidak. Lepas ini, perlu bawa bonda pula melawat tanah tempat tinggal anakandanya ini. Teratak jepun, yang dikelilingi orang-orang yang sungguh tak terbuka pemikirannya. Bersabarlah.. masih ada lagi satu tahun untuk menyelami mereka, dan untuk mereka memahami orang asing seperti kami. 3minggu sudah berakhir sekelip mata. Cuti sekolah, tolonglah jangan habis kerana saya mahu merantau. Ucapkan salam pada Australia selepas satu minggu lagi. =)

What's in Kawaguchiko

Goukaku Originally uploaded by nadiahazli.

ts my 4th day traveling Yamanashi, and I'll be going to Fujikyu tomorrow. Rie Mama has been taking good care of me and my dad, and I can't thank her enough for what she did for us. The picture was taken in one of Yamanashi's great shrine. Its written, Goukaku, meaning to pass. People has been coming to the shrine for wishes, and yes, to pass their exams. ^-^

Food and birthdays.

Why when there's a birthday there must be food? =/ Interesting.

Nonbirishitai..

We had Burger King for Nafhani's birthday Partee.

Bonda just came back from outstation this evening. I couldn't really help around the house, since I was too tired from the 7 hours flight. Datte, we spent the whole night before our flight melalak-ing at the karaoke-kan. Me and Iman. I brought too many chocolates and sweets this time. Can't afford all the expensive things anymore though my brothers wanted DS. I really couldn't. It felt weird without my 2nd brother around. Not-complete. 9/10. Sabishii, chotto. Isit because of the weather, that I'm feeling very dry, fatigue, and my body is aching all over? Rasa macam nak demam, sakit kepala. Berjerebu la masa keluar tadi. Bonda was quite worried as well. "You just travelled dari 'luar negara'...bahaya ni". T-T" My plans for this weekend, Friday- Petronas Meeting. Saturday& Sunday - Student Summit. But, suddenly there's so many other things going on as well. Family picnic la, gathering la, sukaneka la.. komaru wa! Saya balik mau nonbiri. zutto nonbirishitai.

Bila Nadiah belajar.

Al-Fatihah for Yasmin Ahmad.

Me and Iman talked about her, probably about 1 a.m just now. We were watching Buletin Utama, that was aired at around 8 pm Malaysia time. Wondering what is she going through at that moment, fighting for her life, and communicating with the 'other world'. What if.. this.. and that.. there were so many ifs. Not knowing that she was already gone. Innalillah. God knows whats best for her. Kematian itu, bila-bila dan dimana-mana. Work, as if you're going to live for hundred years, but pray for forgiveness-live your live for The Almighty, as if you're dying tomorrow.

Minggu Depan.

I have 8 papers and 3 reports to go. -Yeah, I am scared.

My Oath.

Kuhadapkan mukaku, kepada yang menjadikan langit dan bumi, aku cenderung lagi berserah kepada Allah dan bukanlah aku dari golongan orang-orang yang menyekutukan Allah. Sesungguhnya sembahyangku, ibadatku, hidupku dan matiku kuserahkan hanya pada Allah tuhan seru sekelian alam. Sekali-kali tidaklah aku menyekutukanNya. Dan dengan demikian aku ditugaskan, dan aku adalah dari golongan orang-orang Muslim (Islam). -Doa Iftitah-

It's hard for me to breathe. Thinking about what will happen to me. What should I do? What should I do? "超ー困る！超ー困る！”と繰り返す口から出しちゃった。I never thought of being so scared of myself, of what I've become. It made me think about what is it that I am aiming for in life? What is it that am I scared of? What is it that I am facing? I wanted to go to overseas to study. Experience a new life, somewhere outside my 17-years-frame. I know what I wanted, what I needed, thus I worked for it, and I'm here (thousand miles away from home). Alhamdulillah (not that I've been wanting to leave so bad). But, is that just it? The End?......... No. Its the start of everything. Now I'm bounded. I have a duty to be worthy of what I am. I have to, do what I am supposed to do. Which is to study. YES, they support me, give me what I need for my studies. The stress of doing JUST that, almost killed me. I am a normal human being, always new to something, NEW. I need time to adjust things. To figure out the purpose in everything that I am doing. There must be a reason. Why I'm here, and why am I doing it. Why do I have to study so hard, and not happy with the result. Why do I have to take some sure-fail subject, and being scolded for failing. Why am I taking 12 subjects per semester, to get the minimum GPA of 2.7- which I know deep down inside it is not, 無理impossible. Yet, I am down on my knees, feeling guilty for everything that didn't work out. Being scared to death to things that I'm not ready of. Oh Allah, You taught me everything. Things that I am supposed to know. You gave me the chance to be here, to fulfil my dreams; but the idea of achieving the temporary doesn't tempt me anymore. and now I know where You're leading me to. I am. going to study my best for You. It's my ibadah to You. To give back to You. Its to You who I asked for; time of tears, and joy. My life is for You. だからお願い、give me strength for this. Let me get through it-無事に. お願い。お願い。 It's for sure that the outcome, will definitely benefits now, and here-after.

Apabila anda ditawarkan BIASISWA, Apakah tindakan anda? Katakan 'Alhamdulillah' Bacakan Al-Fatihah Lakukan Sujud Syukur Kekalkan Solat Sunat Dhuha Jadilah Hamba Allah Yang Sentiasa Bersyukur. -Siri Motivasi Solat/ Ustazah Hafsah-

#a hand book that I've been reading since PMR. I don't know where its from since I don't have the cover page with me anymore. もうすごいボロボロだ！

Sesungguhnya sembahyangku, ibadatku, hidupku dan matiku kuserahkan hanya pada Allah tuhan seru sekelian alam.

Skype with Lil Sisters

Picture taken from Skype online camera. - Japan. From ayah's camera - Malaysia. rindu-sangat-amat-bangat.

Seperti Membaca Peta Negeri Siam.

Sudah lambat lagi sesat. Oh apakah nasib badan..(+。+)

Setiap dua minit periksa telefon bimbit mencari jalan terpantas ke MeijiGakuin.

Nak buat macam mana ni, kalau dah sampai stesen pun, tak tau nak kemana dari mana. Dekat ke? Jauh ke? Nak jalan, atau naik bas saja? taktahuuu...!!

Menelaah peta lama-lama pun tidak ada gunanya. Tak membantu lansung. 無意味な地図！マジで.

Lagi 5 minit sebelum jam 9 pagi. Peperiksaan mula pukul 9.

Teksi〜!!Teksi〜!!^o^

chop.

Tengok duit dulu ada ke tidak. Tak pasal nanti kena buat baito ganti pakcik teksi pulak.

duit ada..ada...1sen, 2sen.. cukup.

"Ke Meiji Gakuin..ini petanya, tempat yang nak pergi ambil periksa. Saya dah lambat ni pakcik. Tengok-tengok la peta tu ye, tak reti pulak saya nak menerangkannye".

"Ini peta negeri mana ni dik?",suara pening pakcik teksi mula merisaukan si budak yang sudah lambat dan gemuruh sungguh nak pergi exam ni.

"Tak tau la saya pakcik. Itu slip peperiksaan tu. Misti betul punya," serabut saya menjawab.

"Ini macam peta Aomori-shi ni adik oi〜! Kat Aomori-ken sana nuuu..."

"Apekah---AOMORII?! sampai kiamat la tak faham-faham peta tu kalau saya tengok sendiri.(ToT)."

Decisions, life is all about it.

In life, we learn to make decision. 自分のことは自分で決める。 No one can help you make up your mind; one thing for sure, you have to be responsible with whatever path that you have chosen. I am going back to Malaysia. Then, back to Japan, and back to Malaysia again to continue my holiday. I've bought the tickets already- that cost me extra 35,000yen. (I've spent nearly 100,000yen- RM3500+/- only on flight tickets) Why? Why did I [わざわざ-susah-susah] go back to Japan? If I bring back that 35,000yen to Malaysia, I can joli-katak cuz that is a lot of money. Sangat banyak. "Kau yang nak pergi, bukan aku. Decide on your own la." "Kalau aku jadi kau, takde pikir apa dah. Duk diam2 je kat rumah tu. Buat susah badan je." "It's your call. Make your own decision." "Where's your priority?" Despite all that, yet I bought the tickets. Which means I can't go to Australia, nor Jakarta this summer holiday. Plans gone. burn- just like that. Why? What makes me do what I did? It was never personal.(I hope it wasn't) I didn't do it because you tell me to. I didn't do it because of my promise to you. I didn't do it because I had to. I did it because I want to. Stop making me feel guilty. Stop making me feel as if my decision was a mistake- an error. No. I don't think so. I've made up my mind, and it's up to me. The least thing that you can do is just to appreciate me, provide me with your support- cuz its what I need the most. And God, please. Please give me the chance to see those smiles; making every second worthwhile. To make myself useful- whatever it takes. Please make things go smooth when the time comes. I beg you. We make the plans, yet realizing that You know better- You know it all. Decisions, life is all about it. Only to You, I put my hope in- regardless whether its right, or wrong.

When we entered someone else's class

I was free for the 2nd and 3rd period Friday, when Kouki approached me and asked if I want to join his English History class -the class was in Japanese. Jori came in later on, and we sat in the last row of the class. As soon as the lecture starts, all the other boys stop talking, and...... they went to sleep. Great-just great. I had no idea what the teacher was saying, since her japanese was so fast and I just can't hear her voice. No wonder they said that the class is so boring. I started doing my book-keeping, Jori with his drawing, and Koki did his homework. When the class is about to finish, the lecturer asked them to send in a short report. On-the-spot. ..and, they panicked. Koki : "Jori, what did she talk about?" Jori : "How, am I supposed to know. I don't even understand her Japanese. But I can draw you something". Koki: "You don't expect me to send in a drawing, do you??" "haha..." I have no idea what did Koki write for the report, but that is Jori's drawing for Koki, and I'm happy that I finished my book-keeping. -what a class.

I Don't Know Where To Start.

When I am being asked, "So, what is Islam?", more than twice a day, I feel like I need to have at least something written on my hand. Da'wah to non-muslims needs great strategy, or else I'll have nothing to tell. -At all (・_・;) Akhlak by it self is good enough you supposed? I don't think so. What ever that I say, how I say it, means a lot to them(the listener). While they wait anxiously for my explanation, I just pray to God to give me strength, so that any words that come out from my mouth have meanings- real meaning. (At that time, I really-really felt like I need Him soooo much ) Who is Allah? Who is Muhammad s.a.w? What is Al-Quran? What does the word Islam means? Why do you live on this earth? Why are you here? Why are you not a tree, neither you're a bird? ┐(￣ヘ￣）┌ -They'll go, "huh?" for such questions. Too many.. yes, I know. I want to start with the amazing, beautiful piece of Al-Quran, but which one? I have completely no idea. But, I found these Arabic-English Al-Quran translation on the net, and they are for kids. Indeed, very easy to understand, fun and cute! Try listening to this. You can download them if you want to.

Listen "Quran 02 al alaq"

Download for free "Quran 02 al alaq" mp3

Listen "Quran 03 al maun"

Download for free "Quran 03 al maun" mp3

Listen "Quran 04 al asr"

Download for free "Quran 04 al asr" mp3

Listen "Quran 05 al fatiha"

Download for free "Quran 05 al fatiha" mp3

Listen "Quran 06 al falaq al nass"

Download for free "Quran 06 al falaq al nass" mp3

Its the feeling where you want to share the things you know. Its the happiness of telling, yet deep in my heart, I know its something that I just have to do. Born to do- Da'wah. Which the word was so "err...what? " to me before, has become a part of me; and it is me. Yet, so hard for me to get through. Please, teach me to teach others. Where should I start? I'm starting to feel the burden, yet so thankful that I've been given the chance; to tell, to explain.

Lets do Puzzle～! #2

In the last post, we finished the frame of the puzzle. .......next on, we divide them into colours. Red, blue, green.. I looked for the buildings, and Iman helped doing the down part of the puzzle. Obvious shapes.

.....to be continued.

#We have finished doing this and I'm just posting up what we did.

Sweet Paradise.again.

Chocolates-CheeseCakes-Cocoa-Tiramisu-Parfait.

またスイパラかよん〜？

またダイソーに行っちゃったの。

またプリクラを撮ったの。

Victor Merah lagi Murah.

1980yen sahaja. Paling murah berbanding headphone lain yang ada. Biasa dalam 4-5ribu yen.

Kalau tak silap, ini masuk kali ke-4 saya beli headphone. Satu bagi orang, satu kene curik kat Paris(dengan iPod sekali..), satu lagi dah bagi ayahanda pakai kat rumah.

Kenapa beli headphone? Adakah ia satu keperluan? Jawabnya, sangat-sangat perlu.

1-Earphone leceh, susah nak pakai kalau dah siap-siap pakai tudung. Nak cabut, dan pakai balik lagi la susah.

2-Headphone dapat memberitu orang sekeliling yang kita ini tidak dapat mendengar apa-apa pun yang sedang berlaku (dengar sikit mungkin, cuma tidak jelas). Kerana saya pakai tudung, orang tidak tahu yang telinga saya sudah disumbat earphone dan menganggap bahawa saya pura-pura tidak mendengar apabila dipanggil. 3-Kalau masa puasa, rasa lebih selesa kalau tak masukkan apa-apa dalam lubang telinga (^_-).

4-Bunyi headphone lebih surround dan real.

.... itu sahaja buat masa ini. Akan saya tambah kalau-kalau teringat poin baru.

#Apa agaknya yang saya selalu dengar sampai headphone menjadi keperluan...?(^-^)v

Manggis for 38ringgit +/-

Satu, dua, tiga, empat, lima, enam, tujuh, lapan, sembilan, sepuluh.

Sepuluh biji manggis.

Considerably cheap. Why? Normally it would cost 300yen for ONE-said Iman. about 10ringgit.

-Bersyukurlah manggis kat Malaysia murah. Tuhan bagi segala macam buah-buahan kat kita. Raja buah pun kita ada. Apa lagi yang tak cukup..?

(^_^)Alhamdulillah,saya bersyukur.

#簿記の授業中なのに。。〓超疲れたの！

Teaching Katsu Arabic Letters.

Like every other Friday, where we would go to the cramp school and teaches Japanese highschool kids on how to speak English the right way, I taught Katsu the first 3 letters of arabic. Alif, Ba, and Ta. The rest is history. This video was taken last week, and for today's lesson, I taught him the usage of kasrah, fathah, dhommah, (baris atas, bawah, depan, dll..). He managed. Then, there's -" Hal Anta Tholib?" -"Na'am, ana tholib." -"La, ana ustaz" and, -Syukran -Afwan. He can write them all. Connected. We're using Assalamualaikum - and- Walaikumsalam to greet, and say goodbye. *any other ideas on what else to teach him? I'm not very good at arabic myself, but I'm learning as well. ^-^"

Lets do Puzzle～! #1

1500 small pieces for ￥2550. Not an easy one. Lets start~! Look for the sides first...

Voila, frame side done~!

to be continued..

A DVD Player For Me!

I just bought this 2nd hand beauty for 1980yen.

It can record DVD as well.

Ah.. I spent exactly 10,000yen tonight on this, clothes, and a little bit grocery.

Kebendaan.. (*^。^*)

When we entered someone else's class

I was free for the 2nd and 3rd period Friday, when Kouki approached me and asked if I want to join his English History class -the class was in Japanese.

Jori came in later on, and we sat in the last row of the class. As soon as the lecture starts, all the other boys stop talking, and...... they went to sleep. Great-just great.

I had no idea what the teacher was saying, since her japanese was so fast and I just can't hear her voice. No wonder they said that the class is so boring. I started doing my book-keeping, Jori with with drawing, and Koki did his homework.

When the class is about to finish, the lecturer asked them to send in a short report. On-the-spot.

..and, they panicked.

Koki : "Jori, what did she talk about?"

Jori : "How, am I supposed to know. I don't even understand her Japanese. But I can draw you something".

Koki: "You don't expect me to send in a drawing, do you??"

"haha..."

I have no idea what did Koki write for the report, but that is Jori's drawing for Koki, and I'm happy that I finished my book-keeping.

-what a class.

Mencari Pasal

次の日にみんなが１限あるのに、なんでボーリングに行ったのかなあ。３ゲームもしたよ！ ３ゲームは￥1350、と靴借りは、￥３００。（貧乏なのに.... T-T") やはり、handicapped の私が、負けちゃったの。一番最後なの。だってさ、昨日献血したばかりで、左利きなのに右手をずっと使っていた。 198点ぐらい取ったと思う。覚えてないなぁ。。[ハハ..悪いもん] 楽しかったよ～！皆との最初のボーリングなんで。。嬉しい～

Mid Term Test

This is the first class to have the mid-year test. I have no idea how good or bad will I do this time since I was so busy doing other unimportant things. x_x

Its the English propaganda class where we have to learn different words and terms that are used in business and politics advertisement. -They're pretty hard to memorize,but I found it rather interesting-minus the excessive information on America.

By the way,Petronas has been worried about how our studies are going. I don't think getting a 4 flat or a Dean's List is impossible, but even getting a 3 pointer is VERY HARD enough. This is Japan, excuse me.

Everything is in Japanese. I will say that I still-am having problem with the language; that is use by the teachers and the text book.

I heard a saying, "Our hard work and effort matters the most rather than the result". Is that really so?

What about, "No matter how hard you work, if the result is bad, then there's still no point of doing whatever that you're doing".

Ah, I totally disagree with the later.

What ever it is, I want to make it through. All this test and exams are made to make me stronger I suppose. Not only in studies, but in life as well.

*written from phone@F棟の２階！

Are we really that unuseful?

Im in a middle of my first period, Monday class; where the sensei is talking about life after University. What would one want to be? Knowing that its hard to survive in the living games nowadays.

-Even if you have graduated, they industry may don't need you at all.

-Young people have no experience,　thus this makes them 'unwanted'.

(He has been talking for the past one hour. Too much input to be written..)

知識をインポットしなきゃ！

Im having berbelas2 kelas in one semester. Great. Just great.

Racist?

She came in bangin through our door when we were about to finish our morning prayer. She was mumbling, non-stop about the noise that my washine machine made. Its no doubt that its my fault for the stupid sound that it made in the so-called "middle of the night". But our prayers has got nothing what-so-ever to do with that.

What does she have against we praying??

She said that she's going to complain to the homeowner about our morning prayer that looked too suspicious, as if we didnt sleep all night long.

What do you expect to see??

She jerked her head through our front window the next day. Wondering that we'll be praying again at noon. Crazy.

"You people make me sick! Your prayers are sick! This is Japan, so stop your so-called prayers and do what Japanese do!"

Excuse me, God is everywhere. Don't be so bias-prejudice-racist-sterotyping...(what else?) Argh! this is so stressful! She can hate us, but never ever insult our religion.

Plus, she said that there was a weird smell made whilewe were praying. Apekah?! Ingat kita solat ada pakai kemenyan ke?

ish.

Summer

I bought my tickets already~! I know, its too fast! I just came back from Malaysia less than 2 months ago! This is crazy! Again, I will be going back for 2 months; 4th of August, untill 22nd September. It's long! Too long! wah! theres so many exclamation mark! haha..! I am planning to pay Australia a visit this time. I've been wanting to go to America, but since they have the swine flu thingy there, I guess maybe next year. ^-^" So, where in Australia? -Brisbane; Gold Coast -Sydney Any other suggestion? I don't remember where are my friends studying at. Adelaide? This time, 2 Japanese friends of mine are going to Malaysia on the 25th! Yay! (Iman got one already, and she's recruiting for more~ maybe the whole class of 10 people) Any idea of what to do and where to go? *Its still to early for me to be happy about summer, but I really can't help it!

English Class.

I only had first period today, and Iman joined my 1 hour and a half movie class. We watched Enemy of The States and Other People's Money non-stop. Iman wished she had a movie-report class that sounds rather easy and hassle free.(Which is so not〜)

I went to her university afterwards; Chuo Dai which is 45 minutes away bytrain. (OMG, the journey almost killed me! Her department is so far away from the main gate, and we had to climb so many stairs!)

Her english teacher was quite nice; she's from Sydney- no wonder her english is so different from my American teacher.

One of the topic we had in the class was "Special Friend".

I had no idea it was going to be about boyfriend/girlfriend. T-T"

(Yikes,I just realized that my post really sounds like a primary school essay-!〓)

So anyway, we had to practice english as if english is our 2nd language- well it is. Its just that the teacher said that the class is to good for us. Which I do not agree on. Instead of saying what is good for us, she should be thinking about what good can we bring to the class. I mean, by having Iman in her class, Iman can also share-teach other student as well.

They're just having conversation like,

-What do you want your to friend to have?

-What type of boyfriend you are looking for?

-Why do you think people break-up?

They're just having an easy-fun-relaxing class just by talking to each other. That's great isn't it? Compared to mine, where we discuss too much about current propaganda and politics~ Ah, I've had enough of America!

JigPa

Kouki finished his puzzle. It took less than 2 weeks I guess. I thought that he was out of his mind, starting a 1000 piece set puzzle in the middle of the night, when we paid him a visit.

But Kouki is Kouki. He'll go through all out to get what he wants.

He finished school early on Friday, and went back to finish this. Haha, lawak la. He sent me this picture when I was in the middle of a lecture. Adoi~ dahla phone tak silent.. T-T"

The sky part was so hard to figure out, we almost went crazy when we helped him to do this.Jigsaw puzzle is fun-- but, its hard to stop. We bought one too,

and its driving us crazy.

Thai Dramas

We had Thai for dinner. 4,500yen for 4. The Tomyamkun was superb, but... I guess I had too many things(and drama) going on my mind that the taste doesn't stick in my memory. Basically, I really didn't do anything today. Yet, I'm feeling pretty much exhausted figuring out myself and my past. What is in the past, should stay in the past. I've had enough of it, yet it still comes around, haunting me to repeat stupid mistakes. I want my Thai moments back. The soup, and the fried rice. The mushroom, and the shrimp. The laugh and the spiciness. I don't want to think about the uncertain. Memenatkan kepala, hati, dan perasaan; and what a waste of time. #The strawberry-chocolate oreo ice-cream was very good though.でも、二度と会いたくない。マジで。

What did I do today.

This is the view from the 7th floor of tower B, a very small stairway where I would pray most of the time.

Unfortunately, there were times when couples came to hang around for 'private' conversation,and left me wondering where to go next..

Still,I like this little quiet spot.
A place for me to ponder and reflect my day.

We are too small.We are nothing when we're down there.Powerless when we think we are, yet able to change the world when we think we can.

But God has made everything ready for us. Looking fromup above at what we are doing now, its too shameful.

Ah.. tell me what did I do today.

From 1st period, straight to the last 5th period, I just can't wait to go back and get a good rest.

Ah.. tell me what did I do today.

Ada apa dengan India.

Two girls came to me when I was having lunch alone at B棟 and said,

"Are you from 総合文化?"（Sougo Bunka- a name of a department here）

"Are you from India?"

Me,

".............".

"Sorry........Excuse me, what??"-too shocked. Then, when I was on my way home with a friend of mine, an uncle from another floor bumped into us, and asked,

"India..?"

Of course we were shocked,

"Eh... what??"

"Are you guys from India..?" "No, we're not. We're from Malaysia" "Ah... Malaysia? Oh.. Yoroshiku onegaishimasu( having the same meaning as 'nice to meet you')"

Seriously, do I look like an Indian today? Sekali, boleh lagi di maafkan. Twice?? Ini adalah sungguh tidak masuk akal.

Lovers Rock Restaurant

 

 
































Our...3rd? 4th? time having dinner at this restaurant. Since Kouki introduced us (me and Iman) to this restaurant, we have been going this place everytime we pay Kouki a visit at his Cram School in Sagamihara.
 
   Heavy dinner? Well, it is more to, satisfaction guaranteed I supposed. We had various of Italian meal in a night, and yet we paid so little since Kouki has a 3000yen discount coupon with him if we dine with 4 people and above. Pasta, spaghetti, salads... 肉だめなんで、ベーコンも抜きでお願いします～

サーティワン〜SA-TiWan

My 2nd saatiwan(or most would call it Baskin Robin..)in a week. They're having the special 31% off for Golden Week, since last week. It ends tonight though. Once in a while, to have an expensive ice-cream for late night supper does help me feel indulge. When was the last time I spend so much on food? 60bux per meal..still okay. 200bux for a dinner at Malay-chan was absurd! They sell a piece of beef curry puff for 8bux! 8bux per piece! for a curry puff! 冷凍品なのに！ Anyway, I still love my Saatiwan.

even though they cost abt 12bux (after 31% discount) for the smallest one.

満足です。

My Dinner

今日、寂しく一人でそばを食べた。

Rude.

Isit because of the language, that you have to use 'you' with your teachers and people that you should respect? Isit because of its not really a culture of yours to think about others' feeling? Isit okay to do what ever that you think is right? Yeah, the world evolves around you. Good, But I just think you're rude. Like I mention before, words can come out like poison. Where there's no cure but, a permanent scar. Think, before you say something. This is the reality where you can't erase-remove what ever that you've just said.

What aurat?

Ah, pertama sekali saya ingin mengucapkan... astaghfirullah. Kata-kata tidak bisa ditarik lagi dari mulut yang berbicara. Takut melihat. Takut menunjukkan aib orang. Tetapi realiti dunia tak bisa lagi disorok-sorok. Apa lagi nak dikata?

*This has got nothing to do with politics, UMNO, or whatsoever. I know there'll be people questioning about this. Please don't. I found that this video is interesting, and thats it. Please! get the message. Uh!

Looking for trouble?

I am taking Book Keeping class this year. Since I really want to do my best for this particular subject, I want to take an extra class after school to practice what I study. It will be from 6pm to 9:30p.m, every Tuesday and Friday. In order to take that special class, I need to register. In order to register, I need to agree to take an exam after the class finishes around June. The Official Business Skill Test in Book Keeping by The Tokyo Chamber of Commerce and Industry. 3rd level. Next week or so, MSAJ is going to have another Career Fair 2009 for Malaysian Student in Japan. I am in charge of the pamphlet. What am I thinking?? Next week too, I will have to make a speech in front of 400 Japanese high school student. Talking about Malaysia. What am I thinking?? I, volunteered to help Kouki-kun with his English Island cramp school. What am I thinking?? I should really take that back. Or, shouldnt I? I, me, I... ah, even I am sick of hearing that. x-x

Kelas Buli.

Ah, apakah nasib diri ini menjadi lain dari yang lain. Terasa sungguh istimewa, namun kadang terasa disisih. Ah, mungkin rasa hati saja. Jangan terlalu dibawa perasaan. Terasing itu perasaan yang perlu. Disisih itu perlu. Untuk kita manusia tidak terlalu selesa. Terlalu selesa berbicara hanya tentang dunia. Ah, sememangnya diri ini suka bermuka-muka. Hanya berbicara manis apabila diperlukan, namun memanah kata-kata bagai pedang dibelakangan saja. Sudah aku ketahui. Kelas komputer hari Isnin, aku perlu bersedia untuk tidak masuk lambat, kerana aku tahu apa yang akan berlaku. Walaupun, ia adalah benda yang 'baik', tapi aku dapat rasakan aura-aura yang tak menyedapkan hati. Satu meja ada 2 komputer. Masuk lambat, susah nak cari meja yang kosong. Kiri-dan-kanan. Kenapa nak 2? Bukan akan pakai 1 sahaja? Kerana aku tahu. Kalau ada orang di sebelah, tak sampai 5 minit dia akan pindah ke tempat lain. Alasan. Hipotesis aku betul setelah 2 kali membuat eksperimen. Tak sampai 5 minit, memang lari. Ha ah. Aku makan orang. Lari lah. ^-^" -Its okay. Boys yang lari. lari lagi bagus. takde la tak selesa sangat.

また嵐？

嵐のAAAのDVDを買おうかと思った。 やはり、無理かも。高いだし。 あり得ないね、六千円もするんなんて。 けどな、そろそろ新アルバムが発売するから、何とか安心になちゃった。 買おうと思わないけど、彼らがよく頑張ってる姿を見るのは、嬉しくなる。 新曲を聞いてもね、何となくやる気が出る。 悪いのそれ？普段、やる気がないというわけじゃないけどさ。 じゃ、聞いてみ。 興味ないなら、別にいいけど。何問題。

Weekends.

It has been raining for few days now, and my Saturday is done. I have been reading a book on O blood type people and I found it rather funny and interesting. Nothing much to be said by a person that is so famous for having two different personality where it is necessary. I still am me. I've been having a lot of things in my head and things to be done. Choices to made, places to go, people to meet and so on. Yet, I am basically spending my Saturday doing nothing, and what's gone, is gone. Oh yah, I made a cheese-cake just now( at last, I am worthy of making something~)! Husna's birthday was last night. I had totally forgotten that I remember her birthday but never said a single wish to her even though I was with her-- all night long. Pathetic? (It serves me right when no one wishes me on my birthday.)-Past? Present? Future? I realised that I have become my own fear. Something that I wish I would never want to be. To do things that I would never will do (again). But, Que Sera Sera Whatever will be will be The future's not ours to see Que Sera Sera What will be will be. ^the songs keeps on playing in my head, reminding me how weird the education system was-is. We sang this for 3rd grade year-end's presentation. Is it true? Agreeable? that, what ever will be, will be? Soory,the picture is too big. We ate too much sushis >_<" Charlie-Me-Akane-Husna-Iman.

Mixi

ミクシィを作りましたよ～！ I am officially a Mixi user now. Which means I can add my japanese friends from school, and vice versa. But unfortunately, I am too....恥ずかしい to do so. *Mixi is a very popular site like Facebook and Friendster, used by most japanese kids even adults nowadays. I am just too obvious around the school, whereby when, (if) I added someone that doesnt know me, they'll find me VERY easily. And that.... IS embarassing. Currently, I only have one friend (the guy that sent the Mixi invitation to me), and joined Aoyama University student group. I've been trying to find my school friends, but its too impossible. Too many people with the exact same name, wierd crappy names and so on. Unlike Facebook, they don't use real name which really makes me sangat ムカツク. -Susah orang nak carik tau! Tolonglah, kalau guna facebook tu pakai nama sebenar. Kalau tak mau, sila get out and use friendster or myspace instead. Its really annoying. *-*" Journey to the Mixi world has began, and it would not be easy. Reading their comments are scary enough to make me feel dizzy all day long. Like English and Malay, yes, they use short forms, a lot of unknown marks, expressions, and so on. Again, too many kanji, would make my head go round and round. If you have a Mixi, よろしくね。アッドしてね。 I will try my best to get to know more, and blend in with others even though I will always be different. jya na.

Araaa....

Ini adalah semasa dia tak kenal kakak dia lagi. Masa bonda pergi Barcelona, setiap malam dia nangis. Penat saya..

Rindu sangat, amat, bangat.

Saya sangat rindu budak kecik ni. Aish... Tudung comel itu saya beli di Jakarta. 会いたくてたまらない～！

This is a video before my parents left for Barcelona. Iya da! ここにいてくれたらいいなぁ。。 I miss those laugh. Those baby words with priceless meaning, and emotions. ahh...if only.

MSAJ 花見＠歓迎会

Yoyogi Uehara Park was not bad after all since most of the Sakura left their home about a week ago. It was quite late to do hanami at this time of year. But, it was lucky for us to find a very nice spot under a white sakura tree somewhere not-so-far-away from the toilet. (eheh..) On that beautiful Sunday, Iman baked 2 cheese cakes. As usual, they tasted like heaven. Thanks to her, hanami was a bit more sweet-er. We bought about 85 bentous for any MSAJ that comes. But, it too obvious not that many MSAJ members would not come, for too many reasons. So, everyone that came got a free bentou. I think I brought back about 2 for my self. Hotto-Motto was OK. I like thier Ebi-don though. ..kelas dah mula dah..nanti sambung balik. kut.

Let School Begin!

I've managed to finish my schedule. (At last~!) Unfortunately, I can't take French as my 3rd language since I had to take Human Communication instead. Taking French will cost me 4 extra credit to graduate. Meaning, instead of 134 credits, I will need to have about 140 credits to graduate. (That is if, I'm taking French). For your information, I can only take up to 44 credits a year. Since I got XX for 3 subjects last year, I had to repeat them back this year. Which will be added back to this year's 44 credits. Compared to last year, I'm taking more economics subjects that are pretty hard to digest. In one year, we have 2 semesters. 前期zenki and 後期kouki. In the first semester I'm taking 14 subject, so does the later, which means, I have 28 subjects to pass (AAもらえるように願ってます～！）with flying colours. I know I can't get 4 flats anymore for my last year's stupid mistakes, but I know I need to work hard to reclaim my dream. I've learned a lot for the past one year in Japan's university. You will make it if you know you can make it. It's all in your head. Your mind controls your body. If you have decided that its impossible, it will forever be impossible. Do what YOU want. That's what I did. Experience. I joined too many clubs last year. I guess it was a good thing though (rather saying that I wasn't being committed to the society), trying out different things teaches me a lot of priceless memories. - Model United Nation, where I represented the Iranian Embassy. - Mountain(Rock) Climbing, where I climbed walls after walls, indoors and outdoors. I decided to quit since I was force to spend a night camping with 4 men(instead of boys, since they are very men-looking) - Karate-Taekwando Club, learned a lot of new moves. They were very cool to me, and I really liked their practice; friendly, yet very tough and strict- except the part that I had to practice with the boys. I couldn't continue since I had to joined another club; study group. -Secret Clubs. There are few of this secret club that I joined. That cost me most of my time..何だろうね。。しっかりしてよ！ Alhamdulillah, this year is very different compared to lasts. I'm a happier person, that says hi to everyone that I know. Which makes people wonder, who is that girl wearing the hjab?? Why does she looks very cheerful? I guess since I'm having morning classing(that starts at 9a.m) everyday now, I am more prepared before school. I did not have 1st period class the whole of last year. Plus, I am living with someone(Miss Izyan from Meiji University), and my new house is AWESOME! Its VERY near to the Machida train station, yet we can't hear any train noises at all! My window is facing a stream, and the sound calms whoever that's leaving nearby. -Thats it from me now. I have to leave for my 4th period.(2gen and 3gen, freeeeでした...)

Current 状態。

Sabaq ya, saya baru pindah rumah. Kerana masalah yang tidak bisa dielakkan, rumah baru tidak ada internet.Mungkin dalam masa seminggu dua lagi. Barang-barang pun masih belum kemas. Oleh kerana sekarang sibuk nak daftar subjek untuk semester baru, saya amat memerlukan internet. Sudah seminggu saya bertapak di rumah cik Iman. Bersama-sama memeningkan kepala memilih subjek dan menyiapkan jadual kelas sebelum minggu depan. Sehingga berjumpa lagi~ mata ne.

Persiapan.

I'm packing to leave. Not my bags, but my emotion. I have 2 days left, to get ready. To face the reality of life, back in Japan. Its been a week since I slept early. The earliest, is about 4 am. I can't let go that easily and pretend, as if nothing happened for the past 2 months. Time flies. Kita meninggalkan, dan mereka ditinggalkan.

JD#1

Tracking back to day-1 when we reached Jakarta. -We lost our SLR camera even BEFORE we get to the immigration counter. We were the last passenger to board off. Its too obvious that its the inside job, where everyone pretends that they didn't see anything. We asked for the CCTV recording but there were too many excuses made. We can't even make a police report. (As if nothing happened) = we hate the Jakarta Airport. -Uncle Saiful brought us to his apartment (Rasuna something..), and we stayed there for a night before leaving for Bandung. = Jakarta has so many buildings and malls. -We took Parahyangan train from Jakarta to Bandung for about 40,000Rp(executive) per person. It took 3 hours to get to Bandung. Saw some familiar trains that are brought from Japan. = The view was amazing!! Paddy fields here and there. Kaki-kaki bukit seperti dihiasi taman padi. -Even before the train stops at the station, other passengers sudah kelam kabut took their bags off from the baggage rack on top. = No wonder. Workers came in (menyerbu macam polis) and carried our bags out from the train. Then, have to pay them no matter what. We paid 20,000Rp. 6ringgit tu! -First stop, (like always) Blossom Outlet at Pascal Hyper. Last time, we went there 3 times. This time, pun sama. =Blossom made us feel like home. Not many customers at noon, nice friendly helpers around, and choices are.....too good to be true. -The only thing we knew about our hotel, New Sanny Rosa was, it is near to Rumah Mode. So, we went to Rumah Mode by angkot. =Angkot is a small van that carries people around Bandung. Just hop-on, (make sure you get to know the colours of the angkot, or just ask around since the people there are friendly- you have to speak bahasa Nusantara for that.. hehe) and pay 2,000Rp when you reach your destination. Most of the time we paid 5,000Rp for two (Say kiri~! first if you want to stop yah). There'll be beggars coming at the open door, maybe kids singing, or in our case, a boy singing with his guitar. Some said, 500Rp would be OK, but it doesnt hurt to give more. -We were quite surprised to know that our hotel looks very new and... ehm, expensive(for us). =Since they dont have any website, we just called them (using Skype) and booked for a room. We didnt care much (we thought that it was cheap. yah, years ago before its renovation!) since Hotel Cemerlang that we used to stay last time was fully booked. (I will STILL recommend Cemerlang in anyway) -We went to Restaurant Dapur Sangkuriang for dinner, and the food was GREAT! Cheap -affordable Sunda + padang food, with a great relaxing environment. Ah.. recommended to anyone visiting Bandung. =We saw no one, but Malaysian customers all night long. The rest of the album can be seen here @my facebook.

Sayang.

Apakah maksud sayang? I know you can't generalize things. But are things meant to be the way it should be? Kenapa kita sayang keluarga kita? Kenapa kita sayang teman-teman kita? Ketetapan ilahi kah itu? From my point of view, it is - sacrifice. Sayang is - care. Sayang is - concern. dan lebih banyak lagi. Bayangkan ya, I see you walking, wondering, and climbing right into a tempayan full of nails. I know that. But you? I think you do too. But its too tempting that you cannot stop doing what you WANT to do. So I stopped you. Or else, you'll bleed yourself to death. Crying for your life. (Tak de sampai mati kut..)-kut. But why should I? I could just do nothing and make fun of you. How stupid can you be la kan? Isn't it the same? If I'm asking you to stop smoking. If I'm asking you to stop drinking. If I'm asking you to stop killing yourself. If I'm telling you start doing some deeds. If I'm telling you to be a better-man. I think you know better where does it leads to. Kerana terlalu sayangkan kamu, tolonglah berhenti. Please, stop making fool out of your life. Don't waste it. Kerana terlalu sayangkan kamu, tolonglah dengar. Please, I am not any better than you. I really am not. Its just that I care. I want you to care too. At least, do it for you. #Ahhh.. kenapa aku sayangkan kamu2 in the first place. Kenapakah aku terlalu memikirkan tentang kamu. We're not even related.

ND#12 Serik? or Bijak?

Selama saya jaga Feesa yang no.10 ni, entah berapa kali dah bonda cakap, "Kamu jaga adik, FAIL!" Hari tu entah macam mana, dia main sudu, tercucuk tepi mata. Free-free je dah luka. Lepas tu jatuh katil kat hotel, entah berapa kali. Haish.. さて、 Budak kecik ni, dalam pukul 2-3 petang tu dia kene nap. Biasanya, tengah-tengah main tau-tau dah lentok. Semalam dia main kat bedroom atas. Tiba-tiba, saya yang tengah nak solat asar ni terdengar, "GEDEBOOOM". ....(ah sudah. tergolek dah tu..) Berdarah-darah mulut dia. Risau betul. Ingat patah dah gigi. Adoi..... dah la ada 4 batang je. Mati la saya! Nasib baik la yang luka tu bibir dia saja. Jatuh tersembam kut. Hari ini nap, biar dia tidur kat katil bawah je. Lama jugak dia nap hari ini. Tengah-tengah angkat kain kat luar, dia muncul kat pintu rumah. (Tekejut beruk ha..) Pi balik kat katil, habis bantal dengan comforter semua dtolaknya jatuh ke bawah . Huish, budak satu tahun ni. Pandai pulak ha letak safety precautions. #patut, kakaknye lah yang kene letak bantal supaya tak jatuh! (adoi, terlupalah!)