at 6.30am

Today, at 6:30 in the morning,

I had to send someone to the eki, because she had an early flight to catch. It was cold. I was only wearing my green kaftan, hood, and a jacket. With the thought of six-thirty a-m, I couldn't bother much.

As I went out,

I saw a father, with his primary-school-uniform-daughter walking down to the train station. There were quite a number of them, businessmen in suits with a little girl by them side. They looked old, with a lot of white hair. Around their 40's maybe, off to work at 6:30 in the morning.

At 6:30 in the morning,

I saw a sleepy-looking lady, walking face down to the ground, not bothering to catch the next train that comes. I saw men with their tie on, run as fast as they could, to not miss the 6:30 train that leaves in less than a minute.

6:30 in the morning.

That's not early because the first train to the city is at 4:45 am.

(It's as real as it can get- ready to be crushed to your bones every morning like this, and its amazing that you still manage to do it everyday at least for 20 years time- I didn't take this)

At 6:30 in the morning,

I saw some university students march their way up the hill around Iman's house. There were also students who jog around the area, at six-thirty. Taxis and buses are ready to start another busy day at six-thirty as well. One more day to get through life as if we are meant to live until we're 100 years old. How so meaningful 6:30 is to them.

I wonder, what time do they woke up, if they had to start their life cycle at 6:30? Some of the Japanese friends that I know wake up at 6am for 11am class just to prepare for their make-up (and for the travelling +-2hours).

But us?

What do we do at 6:30 in the morning?

Fajr(Subuh) is at four-thirty and the sun rises at six. Let me remind you that we should not sleep between the hours of Fajr. Allah said so, and the prophet said so. Yet, I am very sure that many of us are still in their futon even 1o minutes before Fajr ends. Let alone keeping ourself awake for the one-hour-and-a-half period. Sounds hard?

No.

What's the different between us, and the Japanese?

Discipline.

It's in our head. If we think its muri-hard, we're not trying good enough to discipline ourself.

[YES, this is a self reminder as-well]

At 6:30 in the morning,

Allah knows everything that you are doing.

What does six-thirty means to you? What do you usually at this hour of the day? Are you like these Japanese? Or, you're like me?- as soon as Fajr ends, back in bed, waiting for the right time to get up for school? [ lets do something about tht then!]

It's what you do.

" I don't like what you are doing, but I respect who you are.

You know why?

Because maybe who you are tomorrow will be better than who I am today."

-Prof Tariq Ramadan

*Subhanallah* "How the Bible Led Me to Islam": The Story of a Former Christian Youth Minister - Joshua Evans

I spend my dinner cooking time listening to this.

Its an obligation for us to share ISLAM to the world. Its our job as khalifah of Allah.
Subhanallah. MasyaAllah.


Menuntut ilmu adalah taqwa,
Menyampaikan ilmu adalah ibadah,
Mengulang-ulang ilmu adalah dzikir,
Mencari ilmu adalah jihad.

...(Al-Ghazali)

Kehidupan

Subhanallah, pejam celik pejam celik, dah dekat sebulan post terakhir jadi muka depan blog. Afwan ya teman-teman. Itu pun kalau ada yang tertunggu-tunggu la kan.. =) Penat lelah kat Malaysia rasa macam tak hilang-hilang lagi. Rindu pulak kesibukan melayan adik-adik; 24 jam tak berhenti, apatah lagi nak duduk depan komputer menulis blog. Sekembalinya ke Jepun, hidup ini rasa macam dah beratus-ratus degree berubah. Selepas pemergian Kak Raihan ke rahmatullah bulan Ramadhan lepas, banyak jugak berfikir-fikir tentang hidup dan mati. Itulah hikmahnya kematian; supaya jadi peringatan pada yang masih hidup.

"A month ago, she was here with us, married for less than a year, and 5 months pregnant. Her husband's apple of the eye, and our big sister that taught us the life in the path of Allah. But life is nothing but a test, for her, her husband, and everyone around her. She left all of us with the baby that we yet to meet. Why now? If she's going to die this early, what' s with the baby? and getting married? or even the hardship of 4 years studying in Japan? It all seems a waste of time. Yes. How life sounds very unfair for the unbelievers." - TDH

Hidup adalah UJIAN semata-mata dari Allah untuk manusia di dunia ini. Kehidupan kita hari ini bukanlah untuk dunia yang fana. Ingatlah semula tujuan hidup kita wahai manusia. Esok mungkin hari terakhir kita mencari-cari rahmat Allah di muka bumi.

Orang-orang beriman, hidupnya tidak untuk hidup. Tapi hidupnya untuk Maha Hidup. Hidupnya bukan untuk mati, tapi justeru, mati itulah untuk hidup. Hidupnya untuk Maha Hidup. Dia tidak takut mati. Dia tidak cari mati. Dan ia tidak lupakan mati, tapi justeru dia rindukan mati. Mengapa? Kerna mati bukanlah wafat. Kerna mati bukanlah akhir dalam kehidupan ini, tapi awal kehidupan sebenarnya. Kerna mati, satu-satunya pintu berjumpa denganNya. Kebahagiaan bagi kekasih, saat-saat, detik-detik, berjumpa denganNya. Saat berjumpa, itulah kebahagiaan. Bagi orang-orang beriman yang mencintai Allah.

-Ust. Ariffin Ilham

Terngian-ngiang ucapan ust. Ariffin dalam mp3nya. Betul2.. diri ini tak berhenti-henti mengangguk, tersenyum-senyum kalau mahu memikirkan betapa hebatnya kasih sayang Allah, rahmat Allah, dan syurga Allah di sana nanti.

Post-box rumah penuh dengan iklan segala macam. Yang tak boleh sumbat, disumbatnya jugak dengan kertas-kertas iklan sampai meluah-luah keluar. Untuk apa ini? Ditelili satu pesatu tujuan hidup manusia di bumi matahari terbit.

Makanan. Makanan, yang lebih sedap. Yang lebih baik. Makanan dari seluruh pelusuk dunia, semuanya ada. Sampai mana sangat perut ini boleh di-isi? Pengakhirannya ke tandas juga.

Hiburan+ Gadget. Televisyen, cerita lawak, drama terbaru, movie terbaru, lagu terbaru. Artis-artis terbaru, sana dan sini. Game terbaru. Camera terbaru, telefon terbaru. Nak tengok mana sangat? Nak mainnya lagi, nak keep-updated sampai mana sangat?

Fesyen. Ini jangan cakap. Iklan baju sahaja dah boleh penuh satu beg kertas. Iklan kasut lagi, aksesori lagi. Perempuan lelaki, sama. Berapa banyak baju nak pakai dah..

Kecantikan. Special discount untuk program kelansingan. Kasi sini kurus, sana kurus, muka pun nak kurus. Tak payah makan la kalau lagu tu. Sini nak cabut, sana nak cabut. Habis semua kasi cabut.

Personally, saya ini tak adalah zuhud mana. Tapi hidup manusia ni, kalau tak berpada-pada, kalau tak sederhana, takut lemas duniawi saja nanti. Nauzubillah.

Semenjak seminggu bertapak di rumah, suis televisyen pun tak dicucuk lagi. Arialnya entah kemana. Terfikir-fikir jugak, apa-apa di televisyen tu tak lari punya. Sampai manalah sangat nak ikut.

-Kepada Arashi, "Life goes on. I'm moving on."

Banyak tanggungjawab hidup ini tak selesai lagi, kalau-kalau lah Allah nak tarik nyawa ini esok. Mudah-mudahan, nyawa yang masih ada ini kita guna sebaik mungkin, insyaAllah.

wallahualam. <3