Snow....

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Cold and Falling

Cold and Falling Originally uploaded by nadiahazli.

On Mount Hakuba Iwatake or whatever which one goes first.. Nagano. Im learning very hard to play how to snowboard. I came with a thought of playing skii, but snowboard looks safetier to me. =) I didnt want to go at first. But having the thought of someone had paid first for me, it was rude to pull out last minute.

I can say that i went alone. None of the girls wanted to join this. Its okay, as Im getting used to do things on my own now. I make short videos, took pictures, go briskwalking at night, watching the ever-so-beautiful stars that are invisible to in the sky of Tokyo.

As i arrived on top of that mountain, put on the board.. And way I go down to the egde. Rikku teached me how to stand n im all on my own after that. Seeing how others do it. I followed blindly. I fell on my ass, my back, my hand... Im in pieces. Bruises all over.. But the worst part was how i felt so crushed. My heart is like the-ever-so hard-ice. Im keeping it very secure in place so that Im never gonna breakdown.

At the end of the first day, I fell on my hand. I hurt so bad that i just couldnt move a bone. I tried to recover but it took me too long to realize that everybody had already went back. The same thing happened on the 2nd day n so the 3rd one. I told myself that Its only my feeling that people are pulling away from me. Is that so? My mind gave my heart a very big smile. To tell my self that its just a stage of my life and things will happened.

I almost lost my phone. I can hear the voices telling me how a bad-careless person i am. How i cant even keep myphone before i receive my first phone bill. I cant cry. I just smile."I'll pay for it. I'll pay for it", I said to myself. I dont know what to do. But I keep on smiling. As i went down for another run, I bumped into Rikku, and breakdown. I had to tell him that i lost my phone. I cried, got up, and went straight down. Masya'allah, The God is, The MOST Merciful n The MOST Kind. As i reached back up, Rikku handed me my phone. A lil bit crooked, the srceen cracked. But its all okay. I thanked Allah countlessly.

Thru my 3 days snowboarding experience and journey, tons of great lessons learned. Test of patience, bravery, and courage. Spiritually and mentally, Im a way better person today.

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何かいい事があったんですか。

Monday. a big smile on the way to school. my iPod played great music that mornin. one small thing changed my life. im no 半分 anymore. last saturday night, i feel appreaciated. i feel loved. to know that i have someone is besides me always. not including The One who never left me alone before, or i'll say, ever! I can't hide the happiness on my face. Sensei saw it, and Tan was like, "何かいい事があったんですか？”。Cis! Hancur moodku.. First time in someweeks that i didnt felt sleepy at all troughout the lessson. Tuesday. Had the 復習 Testo today. not tiesto (i miss trance music so much though..) test-o. It went better than before. not well, but better. I went kaimono-ing afterwards. Again, things that would really make my day. Window shopping, trying on clothes that i feel like buying, but im gonna have to think few more times about it. Imagine, simple top. 60bux. Its quite cheap actually to be compared with Zara or Forever21. rite? But im saving for a 電子辞書、冷蔵庫、apa lagi la.. macam2 la.. but my main mokuteki is to eat well n get nice clothes to wear. done.

Get it goin.

5:20a.m Its tha saturday. Lets get tha weekends goin. Later 2day i'll b havin my Toastmaster thingy. 2moro ada usrah. But I dont think I wanna do just 'it'. Go to the park or sumthing.. I spent most of my time sleepin in my room. Mau kemana sih? Nish went back 2Msia already. She got one month of Christmas break. Mine, 2weeks je. Baikla.. saya mau solat subuh. kang x bangun for toastmaster, sy akan dibunuh oleh org gila itu. Alien kan? kalau saya dperlukan je baru nk ckp dgn sy. kalu x, pandang mukaku pun dia xkan. Apa mau jadi la sama org mcm itu..

Sujuk's Coming!

Great. Just great! I went to class late. not 3mins late, but 3hours of lateness! Aa.... I woke up early this morning, but my head n my body almost killed me. I just couldnt get up..Im okay, just fine. I dont need to see the doctor. Thanks. I wanna put a smile. and to smile again. Even just a fake one. I want my akarui life back! Im erasing the past. Goodbye to the moody-me. Its getting colderrr.. My lips chapped. badly. I wonder how do my other friends r doing in Russia, France. Itsnt it colder there? I think Tokyo just hit bout less than 10. The toilet water are like ice! I know they dont use water, but us? Aaaa....

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As If Im gonna be happier.

as im typing, and keep on typing.. im crashing my heart to ashes. this hurts a lot. as i need a shoulder badly to cry on. as im starting to brake down. I pretend too much to be happy. im trying too hard. but it ended up eating myhead off. im turning 2b someone im not. someone i never wish i would ever want to be. if only the world evolves around me. if only he treates me just a lil bit nicely. i wont have anything to say, or to blame. i know, people hate to care bout other's problem. dont try to be nice if ur not. if u dont want to know my storyline, n help me cope with it, then, thanks. i dont need that kind of attention. let me write. dont bother me. as he say, if only it cud make me happier. while im separating myself from my environment, trying to fit in, trying to change, these are my obsticles. my test to hold on. to keep on breathing for my life. i need a change. something less bitter than this. the right time to just follow the flow. its not about "just-some-other-guy" problem. i dont know if i was wrong. i dont know if he's right. i dont know if others are the same too. im just a lil bit broken.. n caught in a moment. a moment for me to open up a bad little bruise on my skin.

More To Reality.

Shopping technology. Thats everything that i own now. Hp printer, IBM Laptop, my Logitech Webcam, My headphone, Some internet security crap, ( sebelum mereka dirasmikan). I should be thankful. and I am. very am. My Laptop & Webcam. Pada masa ini laptop saya dodol. Dia buat perangai pada hari ke-2 sy menggunakannya. All the kanji popped out! And it died at then. Pelik kan? Jangan tanya kenapa saya beli IBM. Saya kan pandai.. xnak dgr cakap org..

My phone n iPod.

I got 'em together. With this plan from SoftBank.

But i have to hold the phone for the next 2 years. But i got the 2G iPod for a cheaper price. It was a good deal. Till i have to pay the bills every month, then i'll know how good the deal was..

My Room.

Its super messy. Just deal with it. I can be a good housekeeper if i want to. =P

I live in this plc alone. Husna 's next door. But now I have some other gadgets to not make me feel lonely. n Im happy here btter than anyplc.

*Expt. thier garden n hill tops. Those are the best plc to hang out or just chill. But alone la.. Hehee..

2 Months.

Days went soo fast. I couldn't feel the moving time. Im starting back this blog of mine after stoppin for a while. Its hard though, to just sit and write. I ave the words right here in my head. But when it comes to online-ing and writin blogs, I stumbled.

2day, the 3rd time we change place in class. I never expected anything. But it seems that sometimes the choices lies in my hand. To change or not. Im starting to get annoyed. The uneaseness is killin me. Im not happy with my seating. It is I who have to get use to my environment. How to be happy with whatever ur given? To make full use of it?

As days are getting shorter. My life is gettin wasted. Isyak is at 5 sumthing p.m now. by that time, I felt like, "Oh, I prayed isyak already.. now its time for bed". Its good is someway, but I ended up goin 2bed at 2-3a.m in the mornin online-ing and doin my homework. The next morning, im gonna struggle very hard in class just to stay up. 3p.m, i reached home, back to the laptop again. The same routine goes on for the past week! Something is somehow wrong here.

Its gettin colder day by day.. my room is super freakin cold cuz my heater broke down. They're changing a new one next week. By that time, i dont know what cud happen to me. Hmm.. I cant blame the weather. Damn me.

Bunga yg sgt chomel tapi sangat mahal.. bout 24 bux. 788YEN. there's one with cherries n cute little apples. =)

Picture with JPA's senior. This mountain ada keluar asap panas dsbbkan gunung berapi.. Pastu diorang buat telur hitam kat sini.. Rasa sama je mcm telur biasa, cuma hitam. mesti diorang x pnah tgk telur masin.. =P

This picture on top was taken from the bukit berasap which ive forgotten what its name was. Mount Fuji can be seen from up here. Its like a snow white small mount floatin in the air. It was so beautiful. Hontou.

*All pictures are courtesy from my new pink samsung phone. =)

Suara Takbir

Im listening to P.Ramlee now.. Suara Takbir.. Just finished my class on the 2nd day of raya. Hmm, somehow.. ofcourse it doesnt feel like raya at all. The past days was quite hectic. I havnt been writing for a long time. The raya eve, we went to Jonathan's to bukak puasa. I ate salmon kicap for god sake! that cost me me bout 60bux! (I cant stop comparing the prices yet with RM cuz everything is just pure expensive!) We do imagine things, especially when its raya eve. Usually, Im gonna have a last minute shopping with my mom back in M'sia. But that night, our petronas family wasnt a complete one. When a person decided not to be together and happy on raya eve, it affected everybody else. The rainy night seemed so dull. As we went back, trying very hard to be happy, my mind was all the way in Darfur, Palestine and so on.. I should be very thankful that I still have the 'petronas family' with me even if its isnt what most called perfet. And I am. I love the 'miss Iman' cooking spirit. (Heh, I guess food do bring us together.) The always happy Naza n Kak Nor that cheer things up. Rikku, the utmost positive and friendly.. Tan, the talking virus.. Husna, the most calmed but at the same time thinks too much. Kak Ina, who plays an important role of a 'big sister'. Hmm, whatta bout Ehsan? I thinks he's cool. Yeah, he's the 'cool' type of guy. Not much of nonsence n kanky-ness. =P Oh yah.. the last name to be mentioned.. Awadh san.. I dont know what had gotten into him. We havnt talk much since we went here. But nowadays its worser than ever. We fight with no reasons. Everything i said seemd to be very wrong. Look, who would want to spend the raya eve alone, in a room, doing homework, cook, eat alone n just be sad. What an idiot! I know we're not in Msia anymore but raya is still raya.. Doink! Everybody else have class on Eid Day. And we cooked together that night. We still did. Without him. Even Tan stayed in ABK the eve night. We cooked rendang ayam n daging. Ketam masak cili api. n some bunch of fried chicken! Kak Nor brought her laptop to the kitchen n we sang all the raya songs 2gether. =) From there on, I really felt the spirit of raya.. Its quite sad that all the foods are super hot! PEDAS!! I ate only chickens n serunding. I wish I learned more how to cook all the masakan traditonal. Arghhh!!! Its because Im a Malay! In anyway, Im gonna miss the ketupat, rendang, serunding.. the kuih2 raya.. Dont tell me that even ur in KUtub Utara u dont miss all that. I miss kampung. I miss Tok Midah in Kulim. I miss the soto lembu on the Eid morning in Batu Pahat. I miss the crazyness of my brothers. My family. After the Eid prayer, we'll take family pictures at the Kedai Gambar lama.. and the chinese lady akan marah2 suruh duduk diam2.. Go beraya kat rumah sape2 yg ada kat rumah. ='( At night, tgk movie2 raya.. and most of all............ BUNGA API!!! I sempat call Tok Midah before i went to class. My mom in Johor, my dad, atok.. My brothers yg sibuk sungguh nk NintendoDS. The night before i called Effie n Darem.. I tried to call my girlfriends but then xdapat.. Uhhhhhh!! Baru just now i called Fanna but she's goin beraya-in! We went to chiba last night. I dont wanna spend my first day of raya watchin crappin japanese tv. It cost me 1200yen. 36hinggit oi! jalan kaki, naik train, naik bas.. hue! dapat makan lemang tiruan yg dmasak dlm bekas plastik! rasa sungguh sedap! cam lemang! hehehe.. nama pun lemang.. Aaaaa...this year gambar raya cam crap ah! X amik pun actually, pgi Chiba pun 6 ppl. 3 senpai, n 3 of us. Still. Im happy n thankful. Selamat Hari Raya people...!! Maaf Zahir Batin. Anymistakes i did, I mintak maaf banyak2. Any terkasar bahasa. Any talkin behind-back crap. Im super sorry. Hari raya resolution to lessen that. I miss everybody now. Even people I never thought I'll miss. Harap dmaafkan. ???????Onegaishimasu. Assalamualaikum.

To my friends

Daia, sorry x mention ur name, tikah, sorry x post gambar.. i had some technical problems to do so before. =D anyway, kelas baru habis. later im going to ikebukuro with kak ina for shopping. there's branded stuff selling cheap. dont tell me what i should not buy. kaimonoshimas makes me happy. I wanna be happy. Kat sini cam chotto sabishii. I dont wanna wear the same thing over and over again. I feel dull and boring. Which makes me feel sad. Which is not good. n im hating it. now im crapping. Crapping is a very good rensyu so that i dont forget my english. nihongo is so powerful here that it could kill my english. =P my dad gave me 100minutes of talk time to call people. but unfortunately, i dont even remember a number. I mean, my friends's number. Daym.. Were still waiting for our alien card to siap. Later then, baru boleh buat bank account. Then.... baru la boleh beli phone.. susah sungguh. They bought electric dictionary and mp3 while i didnt. Its not that im saving, ( which i never was..) but i prefer to survey around, to find the best there is, the application, bla bla bla.. and, the look. I want happy coloured things! .. ah. kawai-so. pathetic me of wanting to be happy. Sza's comin! yay! can lepak with her here.. ngee.. cant wait. there's lots of stuff nk pesan kat die. again, sangat happy... ngee.. =D its 3:50pm now. iftar (berbuka) is at 5:10 maybe. gonna go to Masjid Otsuka afterwards.. that'll be after i pgi ikebukuro la kan.. Oh yah, i made friend with this Bali girl. namanya Minami. ueh, practice indon juge dech aQ dsini.. harap nihongna bsa boleh jyozu juga gtu.. aduih, bsa gtg. ja ne. salams to all.

Uh... While things are getting windy.

Days, I dont know if its getting better. I hate to write. Just bcoz this pasokon is in japanese and i couldn understand a thing. Everything doesnst make sense. The more i write, the crazier I've become. The relationship is getting smoother with better understanding of each other. I've forgotten the past easily. Mind what i've said before. I do mean it at then. but now, yeah, i can say that i actually didnt know any better. But at times, when I wanna be alone, I want to accompany by someone I could really talk to. Someone who'se not in my everylife but knows everything about it. Sounds complicated right? Shits happens. Ouh yah, Kak Ina bought me this Tart Berry yg i'll heart her ever for it. Yay! Bday cake atlast! And ouh ya.. Iman n Kak Nor belanja us at Saezariya. Hope i spelled it right. x) Ehsan belanja at this japanese restaurant, which i had no idea what i had there. Cuz its sooo la not what i had in mind of japanese food.. =/ Hmm, think twice, senpaitachi ni mcm sngat best.. I wonder if they're not here before us. Or they're not the person that they are. Things could get worser. Not that im saying now is worse. Getting really well along could take sometime. Maybe, its not-that-so noticeable of me.. But, I can feel that they must be wondering. Or, not at all.. I dont know, I could be very good at reading people, or just pure suck. =P Hmm.. I cud say that I'm quite worried about a friend of ours. We havnt been talking a lot like we used to. I know he have everything to say. To talk to. But, he's not talking to me. I guess.. hmm.. had so no idea what to guess anymore. Quite tired of doing so.. Im trying to go as smooth as possible. Be happy. Mindin business. And where i want this to bring me to. Ouh, yah.. I've decided to strive for ToDai. It aint possible. Its Tokyo Daigaku( University) btw. One of the best as the senpaitachi said. Gambatte. Ngee.. I'll write more as long as this pasokon doesnt mess with me.

Susahnyer

Susah gile la nk add post kat sini... rasa cam nk pindah blog je.. xpe2, ade bnyak tempat lagi boleh tulis.. ngeh2.. kat multiply ada jugak. but then kne la jadi member yer.. okies, ja ne! Ah, my address. hantar la kad raye yer... 309 ABK Yamabuki Ryo, 58-10 ARAKAWA-2 ARAKAWA-KU, TOKYO 116-0002 JAPAN

Re-post

Last night wus my birthday. First time here. In Japan. I had a lot to say. A lot to tell. I need someone to talk to..And i did write 'em in here. Too bad, this laptop that i used, it aint in English. Ended up clicking some crap, n BYE.. Smua hilang. Everything's gone. I miss the chocolate indulgence. I miss the shepard(i spelled it ryte? did'nt i?) pie. I miss Secret Recipe. But most of all, I miss my Family n friends. Having a cake on your birthday is somehow essentials. The senpai brought me to this Pakistan restaurant.?I hate the 'so-called-celebrating' my birthday n being nice to me crap. Or shall I say hipocrite! When we got there, i was placed at the very far end of the group at ANOTHER SINGLE TABLE!! In a very small corner in that SUPER small restaurant! DONT F*KIN TELL ME U GUYS ARE F*KIN CELEBRATIN MY BIRTHDAY! (very sorry for the words yg x sedap tuk dibaca.. ) Hmm.. I can say that they barely talking to me. OPs, sorry, they didnt. They were laughing. Having a good time. Flirting. Match-making. Without me innit. I guess when im feeling messed up, I assumed too much. Negative thinking.. bla2bla.. But u cant blame everything on me. I do care. I do want to be in the group. Too bad then, I wus shutted out. They gave stuff to her. Not us. They help her. Not us. ( Us here is me n her). She was given a phone. Which she doesnt know on how to use 'em. We need passport pictures, they made it for her. They never told me. Im swimming on my own. Let me breathe. If u dont wanna touch me, dont drown me. Lastly I was blamed, for being too cared bout others. I guess I should stop doing that for now. Mindind my own business. Being really independent. I was. Ouh, sorry for blabbing bout how i feel. Im doin OKay here.. Its not that cold. But if its raining.. i felt like freezing to death! Till now, still having cold. My flu somehow x kurang2 lagi. Yesterday I had the placement test. Interview, to ask how far have we studied, 4 paper shiken, kiku shiken (hearing) n another interview to know what's the best class to put us in. I've finishd book one back in Msia. But my result for the shiken is quite low n scary. Maybe they'll put me in class 2. Which will cause me to gambatte more, cuz my basic is not so strong. I dont know, my collegeus, they seem to know more, but they're not helping me. Its not that we have to compete for anything.. Why not just help each other out. Okay,?yes... I am asking for help. I do need one and Im not ashamed to ask for one. But again, sorry for asking too much, cuz they're not giving a hand. My dorm (Yamabuki Dorm) from the class is a about 45 mins of walking and train ride. They have different lines, so have to change train bout 2/3 times. They train systems here are crazy! We got lost tons of times.. But somehow, the ticket cam understand the 'lostness' =P and make us find the way back. Imagine, in a month we have to spend bout RM500 for train ride only. The cheapest is about 130 yen. To them its like RM1 but to us, 3bux per station! So, comeback to my tranportation thigy, from the nearest station, JR Komagome, we have to walk about 20 mins to class... * Everyday like this, Im stick when i come back! Eish, I have more stuff to write, but now have to go to the registration place to make our Alien Card. Taula gaijin.. takyah ah panggil alien.. SUngguh kejam mereka2 ini.. ja Ne! Salam to All.. =)

Kemana?

kamu... kemana sih kamu menghilang.. aku udah mau pergi ini.. tapi masih ngak kelihatan kamu itu.. =( ari ni, ke shah alam bsama irene n xaty. irene bsa mbli bracelet yg sungguh kawaii utkku. xaty bbuka bsama2. yay! xaty belanja. *ngee.. x malu.. -_-' gonna mish xaty a lot! uwahh!! lupa get pics with her.. !! pgi ke intec, btemu housemates. pasar malam, nggak ada apa2. malam, daffi, oZe, hafiz & jams bsa singgah ke rumahku. ehe.. semangat segambut kunun.. ada2 aja kamu2 ini.. =) what kind of life im living? im counting days now. still im waiting. for a friend. that never showd up. i calld. i did. ... the line never went thru. are you okay? i so had no idea what had happen to you.. 3 more days. and i wont be here anymore. wont be seeing nor hangin out with you anymore.. i dont know if you knew. but i've start to miss you already. im goin this friday mornin. still, i dont know if you knew..

Doa Selamat 23rd.9.06

hmm.. my doa selamat. who came? the Koreans, my roommates <3,>BEST FRIENDS<3! my english teacher, my primary school's ustazah and my pevious headmistress. =P and lots and lots of ppl.. my aunts, uncles.. da da da ... mizah sayang make me a *super sedap cheese cake with ichigo on top!*

uahhh.. bessht! she gave some to her bf la kan.. ngeh2.. mizah gave me sum early bday presents jugak! waa.... kamu ini..

my birthday is on 2nd of Oct. 3 days afta i left. Its kinda sad though. Im gonna miss Farhana a lot. Her ever so funny words. She's sumthing special. Mizah, Sza, and Alia too.. the crazyness of window shopping with all not forgetting Irene..

* I'll write a special blog regarding that.

Semua org pun datang pakai baju kurung.. ah sungguh kawaii.. macam raya pulak.. Mirah, Mira Jams, Ema & Alia pun ada... =) Sungguh besht.

Ah.. my roommates! Cik Bedah, Cik Timah and Cik Minah! Diorang pun datang! I heart them so much. 3 months je kenal pun dh cam bessht sesangat. Ahaha.. x sangka at last c them in their true colours. ahha.. sangat la keayuan.. malu2.. ngeh3.. Syifaa' sungguh kawaii pakai skirt, =D

Ah! Zannenda..

This mornin, i went to ESU, KLCC. Dammit! Our flight d'cepatkan by one day. Supposedly, Saturday 30th, night's flight. But now, 29th SEPTEMBER 2006 11:00AM MH 70 KLIA - NARITA We meet one of tha senpai..citer2, bla2 bla.. later then, i terlupa ambil resit visa. i asked my driver to hantar. mmg i think my collegues jenis yg pentingkan diri sendiri. they hav'nt pick that visa thingy up too. why not go together as well?? ni tak. tht b* nk pgi dgn family sendiri. this s* nk pgi naik cab. x sama je ke?? i ended up cari cab cam nk gile! SORANG! x sangka. cab drivers around KLCC cm shial! diorang ambil foreigners dake! then when i got one, nk pgi japanese embassy 8 bux! hm. i admit yg i nih jenis gelabah skit. but today, its more to sad + calm+ alone..., thinking bout these peeps that i'll be goin to japan with. i cant rely on them much. About maghrib, darem called me. ( Actually, i called him back.. =/) hmm.. he cried. regrettin the past. promising me. a chance for a time well spend. 5 years and a half. i'll miss a lot of changes. i'll remember the agreement made. 2moro, my doa selamat. I think i've invited all, but then ramai pun cant make it. Its OK.. No biggie.. I dont know who'll be sending me at the airport. At first ramai jugak my friends nk hantar. but now.. hmmm...

The Aftermath

We had our closing ceremony tadi. Kt ConcordeS.A. Hmm.. some how cam taklalu nk makan all the tempura. Mmg bad timing sangat. Onakaga ittaidesu. Dapat the final result lagi btambah sakit perut. We gave the sensei frame n we got a very nice lookin small mug. Afta that i followed Awadh back to INTEC. Mmg that wud be tha last time i pgi sana buat masa ni. Bila masa nk pgi lagi, taktau la.. Sempat jumpa Syifa' bagi my nimotsu to them. Sian Tikah n Zati.. Im gonna miss 'em soo much. Hmmm.. I went thru a lot masa tumpang awadh balik to Kl. Singgah kt his old skool, dia nk jumpa friends n teachers. I've waited in the car ntah berapa lama ntah. More than an hour ofcourse.. My stomach almost killed me. Ouh ya, dia pgi jumpa ex dia skali. Can't believe she salam me cium tangan skali! Waah.. anak dara baik. Sopan santun.Sweet n chomel la.. Guess that's the type of girl that he's looking for. Mmg on the way back tu we're in high tension skit. Ntahla,dia skit2 nk buat org marah.Mmg sungguh menyakitkan hati. Suruh pgi smayang, ckp im wasting his time pulak. But, he did sent me all the way home. I taktau nk ckp sorry mcm mana lagi when i "think" i gave him the wrong direction for him to go back home. He called la. Telling me that he got the wrong highway. marah2, n trus hang up.. =| # Ayat dia yg paling tajam skali "Tak sanggup nk tgk muka u tiap2 hari". When i told him that my old house dekat sgt dgn an apartment that his mom bought. Dia x sedar ke nanti kt nihon I pun kne tgk muka dia setiap hari?! BAkoya!

My Heart Irwansyah and Acha - My Heart Di sini kau dan aku Terbiasa bersama Menjalani kasih sayang bahagia ku denganmu Pernahkah kau menguntai hari paling indah ku ukir nama kita berdua disini di surga kita Bilakah kita mencintai yang lain Mungkinkah hati ini akan tegar Sebisa mungkin tak akan pernah sayangku akan hilang if you love somebody could we be this strong I will fight to win Our love will conquer all Wouldn't reach my love even just one night Our love will stay in My heart, My heart How can you expect me to be more boyish when i wus really sensitive? You called me names. How do you supposed I should react to that? when i'm super urusai, u told me to just shut up. what isit that u want from me? Im very sorry that i've caused you some trouble, I never meant that at all. I never did think twice to say sorry. Your words do hurt me. A lot. Im wasting your time. X terfikir ke i tunggu u berjam2. U were the one yg xnak tengok muka i lagi. Hmm.. Everyday you call me gedik. Okanemochi. Urusai. Wus I never there when u need me? Did I ever call you with names? We're not there yet. Still, I care. But my care, somehow is'nt good enough for you. You. Only think about youself. Do you? All that i can say is, Thanks.