Hello!

I'm in a good mood. I made this PACO. I'm packing up for home. I'm ready to take chances. I love having Izyan back in Japan. I will be in Malaysia for 2 months. I cant wait to see someone back home. I want to have the best raya ever. I miss bonda. I'll say "Hello!" to the girls. I'll say "Hello!" to the sisters. I'll say "Hello!" to you. It has been a while. Right?

夏の前思い

さーさー！もう夏だよ＾＾！ 花火を見に行ったり。。 遊園地に行ったり。。 遊びー遊び！！ アラマー！ コンサートは？？ 嵐に決まってるでしょう！ ＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝ そうですね。 ただの夢でしたね。 嵐のコンサートなんて、花火もなかなか生で見られない。 さ、 夏は来年また来るのかわからないでしょう？ 命なんて自分のものでもないし。 だから、 夢のままでいいなのか？ 「今年こそ！」って言っても珍しくもない。 けど、 「嵐なんて絶対無理！」と言われたばかり。 「じゃ、無理か？」と自分に聞いてみたら、 やっぱり、夢のままで行けない。 本当に行きたい。 本気で会いたい。 どうすればいいの？ お金で買えないもの 世界一な勇気を持っている人になりたい お金で買えないもの その感情の無限さをもらってみたい お金で買えないもの 嵐のコンサートに行きたい。

=)

Hati yang tenang itu adalah nikmat terbaik dari Allah.

Alhamdulillah.

The decision has been made.

Française.

無事に（そうなの？）終わりましたー 確かにしあまりにもできなくて、めっちゃ悔しいでございます。。ｍ（－。－）”ｍ　何でかというと。

話せますけど、書けません！！

マジで。 書き方がわからない。スペリンッグもむっちゃくっちゃだった。 死んじゃう。 As most of us know that french writing does not make much sense with the sound. What is written, and what is being said, is... a different thing. That is one. The other is that..

They have different ways of spelling the same verb, but the pronounciation is the same.

and Ms. nadiah here, is 超苦手(really bad) at writing them words. Thus, she hates those classes that writes a lot. So picked a class called, "Communication Française III" (dengan harapan hebat akan banyak cakap dari tulis). Well, she was wrong. Most Japanese can write, but not speak the language. It really makes a lot of difference when I could not catch what they were saying in class, and while they are majoring in FRENCH! Thus, Mme. Catherine decided to give us an end-semester exam. Which is WRITING, and WRITING and MORE WRITING.

"I can speak, but not write!"

Why? Because I have no idea how the words are spelled most of the times. Why? Because I learn the language by listening. To their conversation. To their musics. To their radios. Adehh. 寝不足かなぁ・・？Salah sendiri gak eh? Nak belajar, biar belajar betul-betul. Faham semua. Tahu semua. Kan? Kan? Allah nak tunjuk supaya study tu biar sempurna. Jangan huru-hara last minute. (yeke?^-^") UkuranNya ada pada usaha. So, dah terang-terang ek kalau usaha kita pun tak 120%? (seperti kata ito-san yang menyuruh pelajar petronas study untuk straight A's - study kena 120%!)

Kenapa la lagi tak semangat kalau ito-san yang suruh.. >_<"

Ya Allah. Tolong---!! I love my studies. I love française.

Kebakar--an!

Sumpah panas. Tak rasa nak keluar rumah lansung! Parah dah ni. Selama sebulan En.Kipas berusaha menyejukkan rumah, tapi nampaknya kali ini sungguh mustahil nak bergantung padanya lagi. Anginnya pun terasa panas bahang! Aircond sudah mula bekerja. Alamak, naiklah bill elektrik bulan ni. Oh tidak----! Banyak benda lain lagi yang nak pakai duit. >_<" Suhu di Gunma hari ini adalah terpanas di Jepun ; 39.4c ! Nadiah sudah 3 hari tak ke sekolah. Esok dia ada exam pukul 4 petang. Nasib baik. Kalau tak, dia akan berendam dalam peluh lagi. Setiap kali sebelum masuk kelas, dia akan ke tandas untuk mengeringkan baju. =( Setiap hari dia makan aiskrim vanilla. Setiap hari dia tak rasa nak balik rumah. [sebelum pasang aircond] Adakah Malaysia juga panas seperti ni? Can anyone tell me?? Sudah setahun dia tidak balik ke tanah air. Kalau di Malaysia, aircond hanya di dalam kereta. Tapi sekarang, sekolah aircond, train aircond, rumah pun aircond. Tu pun masih panas tak terkata sbb kena jalan kaki kat luar. Tiba-tiba, tepat jam satu pagi, hujan turun dengan SANGAT lebat for a mere 10 seconds. MasyaAllah. Bahang diluar, seperti hilang dibasuh hujan.

Cinta hujan pada tanah

lambat-lambat aku mendongak ke langit ah! awan hitam ini pasti membawa guruh petir bagaikan, melaungkan khabar gembira pada sang tanah yang gontang di bawah 'aku membawa hujan untukmu!' tanah pun tersenyum suka.. sementelahan guruh dan petir saling bersahutan hingga syaitan durjana mendecit ketakutan angin menderu giat membawa awan ke mari bersama libasan air hujan yang dingin terpercik ke sana sini saat itu aku bagaikan ternampak senyuman pada sang rumput bagaikan makin hijau warnanya aku seolah-olah melihat bunga di pasu rakus menyedut air hujan yang bertakung di dalamnya seolah-olah terdengar nafas lega sang bunga jalan yang sebelumnya kering dan panas kini lembab dibasahi air hujan terasa basah kembali... begitu juga cinta tarbiyah pada hati.. saat tanah hati begitu kontang, maka hujan tarbiyah perlu berganda-ganda agar basahnya hati itu hingga ke akar tanah akan sentiasa kering begitu juga hati kita, akan kering pada suatu masa hujan akan sentiasa turun begitu juga tarbiyah, sentiasa mencurah-curah ada tapi, tak semua tanah beroleh hujan tapi, kita boleh jadi hati yang mau pada tarbiyah bukan? maka, rebutlah tarbiyah untuk hati kamu!

Diambil dari sini. Suka benar si Nadiah membaca nukilan ini. ^-^" Panas ke, sejuk ke.. semuanya rahmat Allah.. adeh.. kene bertahan lebih kuat sikit. Nadiah baru sedar, ada orang 'cuba' menulis namanya diatas handphone pink samsungnya yang lama. (Dia bagi orang pinjam selama sebulan. Setelah 2 bulan, ni baru dapat balik) - permanent marker pulak tu. arigatou-- T-T"

Yes, it's here.

I was right. When I said that there were something wrong. It felt as if things are not meant to be for me. I can feel the fall when I'm actually flying up high. That's the person I am. Always ready for the worst case scenario. He actually did. He took 'em all. Another test specially made for me. Am I really better today than what I was last? Is my iman prepared enough to face another phase of trial? Only the heart can tell. and He holds the key to them heart. It took me an hour to answer a question. It took me a night long to finish a paper. And it feels like forever to be able to think right. I couldn't send in an assignment. There goes 2 credits. I couldn't send in 4 reports. There goes another 2 credits. I couldn't finish the final exam in an hour. Say bye-bye to 2 more credits. Yes, He holds the key of them heart. He always listen, and He always knows. I should start by saying hi. Start a conversation. It's a waste if I don't, because he's always here. by my side.

He Gives It All

Dear god,

Why do I always get what I want? I am scared to death for this. Where did I go right? Or where did I go wrong?

You give me everything I want, and everything I need, and I do know that You too have all the power to take everything back from me. It's all yours to even begin with.

You test me with laughter and tears,
with gratitude and grief.

You test me with health and pains, with happiness and loneliness.

I am no superwoman in this battlefield.

I failed - and I got up to give it another try.
I lost - and I got up to give it another fight.

You are always here when I need You. But I am horrified to think of the times that I will abandon You because I know that You will always take me back.

I want to always remember You - Your peace. But I know that I need to always be sober from my old dreams and get back on my feet to face the fact.

The reality that-
I am scared.

What is this test? I cannot read You. I know nothing of the world, I know nothing of the life.

Yet, You give it all. All that I've ever want, all that I've ever need.

The Glorified Names

The Road

This is my post no.300, since my dad made the blog for me in 2002. =) I made this about a month ago. I 'em family. I miss 'em friends.

When hope is always around.

This is a picture taken from my programming class's student portal. The first zero means completed. Well, I haven't completed any of them. To be specific, none of my report have been graded yet for the past semester. Awesome!  Second, is the number 5. I've sent ONLY 5 reports so far. No wonder he's not bothered to grade any of them because..... I have 53 more reports to go by the end of next week  My dear family and friends, this is only a 2 credit class. I have 11 class this semester all together, and I am looking forward for my French communication III exam at the end of the month. Alhamdulillah, I am still sane and believe that things will go perfectly well by the time I'm ready for home this summer holiday. I already bought the tickets for 100,000yen - from 3rd august until 21 sept and yes, they're very expensive. But Iman said it's a process of "penyucian harta". Uh-huh, a person that bought a cheaper ticket can say that (ToT)/~~~ Maybe it's true. I really AM not bothered about money for the past months even though I'm way passed bankruptcy. I buy things that I need, and go where I have to go, regardless of the balance I have in mizuho( the name of a bank in Tokyo). I just know that things will be alright. Money is everywhere. Boleh dicari. If Allah has decided that the money is mine, then it will be mine. This is my voice when I am happy. Today, I am very happy indeed. I have no idea why, but this is the day I start to memorize the Surah Al- Mulk. No doubt that it is quite long for an amateur like me to be able to do 'em, but I'm fairly positive about it. I found it easy if I'm in the process of memorizing the book of God, and then trying to understand and memorize things that I have to learn at school. (I mean, university--) Verily, it is Him who holds the key to our heart. He can make things the way He wants it to be, and yes.. we have to ask for it! Nothing is impossible with Allah. Impossible. I'm possible. Nadiah Azli