Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Your god, my God.

One drop of tears fell off.. One by one. I know that it’s just a class, but my tears fell off own its own. I have no control over it anymore. “I miss my God. I love my God.” “Rindu.. sayang..” “Ya Allah..Ya Allah.. “ “I miss the prophet, the beloved Rasulullah s.a.w..” “Subhanallah.. Subhanallah..” Tears runs slowly down.. I let them be, let them run. “Astaghfirullah hal azim..” I realized that your idea of god and my God is not the same. How could you? How could you? It’s God Almighty that creates the heaven and earth, and everything between it. The Most Powerful, The Greatest Power of All.. That creates us, the human. “Created men out of a (mere) clot of congealed blood” He is, “Lord and Cherisher of Mankind” “The Ruler of Mankind,” “The God of Mankind,” We are just human, that live life like human do. We are NOTHING compared to Him. But still, Allah is The Most Merciful, Most Gracious, Most Kind. “He begets not, nor is He begotten” (Dia tidak beranak dan tidak pula diperanakkan) How could you say that god turn himself into a human to save mankind? How could you say that god made all humans to be evil, and trade himself to sacrifice for their sin? And thus, he is a Father, a Son, and a Holy Spirit? It doesn’t make sense. Not any of them! Tak faham~! I’m not convinced. God knows everything that you don’t. What makes you so confident? Yes, now I know better about you Your god, which was never mine. But somehow, it felt so lonely. The conversation always ends with no ending. Situations, human errors, and more human problems. I don’t see no resolution. I don’t feel no resolution. Still, it’s lonely. Why not talk about His creations instead. The Creator, Subhanallah It’s rather calming. You can feel it, right there in your heart. The moon, and the sky, the trees and animals, they are always in order, just the way that they are supposed to be. The night will come when the day ends. And the cycle continues on His demand. Only Allah who we should submit to. There’s no god but Allah. I’l n’ya deux que Deux. And Muhammad s.a.w is the messenger of Allah. Let this love be for eternity, for the One and Only. “Ya Allah..” And the tears keep on falling..


hanis said...

niea sayang...tak semua orang diberi hidayah. dan tak semua orang dipilih Allah. kita hanya berusaha. moga dengan usaha dan doa kita allah beri peluang pada mereka yang masih leka dan tidak faham.

"Emgkau hanyalah pemberi peringatan bagi mereka yang takut kepada hari kiamat" (An-Naziat:45)

Niealex said...

Hmm.. it was a Christian Faith class.
it was in Japanese, and I rather not carik pasal with the sensei.