for the love of something sweet.

oh my gosh you´re so talented! I´m absolutely impressed :O I was searching for yuna´s lyrics of "fears and frustration" which I found on your blog and instead of reading them, I read your blog and I must admit - I love it!:) Best regards Nur from Germa

^-^ Thanks love.

Ask me anything

好きか愛か？

私のとって、あんたは

特別か？

大事か？

今だったら、

ただ一人の特別な人だ。

で、いなくなっても別にいいのだ。

大事とは、

絶対そばにいてくれないと、無理。

ごめん、そうじゃないもんな。

今までずっと、そばにいてくれた誰かがいるの。

絶対。

その誰かがのために生きていればいい。絶対なにかがあってもそばにいてくれるし。

それは、もう愛だね。

日本語って便利。

好きとかだったら、ちゃんと「好き」っていえる。

間違えなく、愛か恋かともう違う。区別できる。

「愛してる」

という言葉は簡単にいえないもんだから、大切にする。いつか言えるようになる。
まあ、今でも言うけどね、その大事な大事な誰かに。

唯一の存在に。

絶対いなくならない。

あんたは、

ただ一人の特別な人だ。

<3

Happy Birthday Sanae-chan!

She has been listening to my never-ending-life-stories and I can't thank enough for having her around when I need someone to just talk to.

It's her birthday today and we went for a girl's night out few days ago. She decided to go Brisbane, Australia instead of Oregon, USA. I wanted to pay her a visit if she's in the States, but I guess I have to go to Australia intead. hihi.

Kaisen-don is obviously very expensive, but the one that we got was on a good price. *^-^* I actually miss having sashimi and sushi. But this is the best that I can my hands on.

Miss Sanae. <3

our 390yen dinner! 

and we had the best pancake ever!




The mix of cream sauce and apple is just..



happy!

She gave me a Japanese cookbook since I've been wanting to cook various types of Japanese dishes lately.

I miss having dinner with Madamme Iman, since she's the only one who can actually have a REAL Japanese

with me.

  and so we went to the BookOff (a bookstore for used books).

 But there weren't any books that is as good as the one that she gave me. =(

and so I went back home to one of the best breakfast ever. hihi. I couldn't wait till the next morning for this.

on hot rice...raw egg... and...

 nattou!!


So, Happy Birthday Sanae Chan!

Allah Is Enough For Me

by Zain Bhikha

(the story of Prophet Yusuf)

When he was placed in the well

or locked in the dungeon

betrayed by his own flesh and blood

convicted of what he did not

handsome Yusuf sighed

Allah is enough for me!

Taken in as a slave

made to work night and day

resisting all temptation

Allah is enough for me!

Until the king had a dream

Many hard years had gone by

patience and repentance

Allah is enough for me!

Till...the fortunate day

there he sees his father

in the land of content

Allah is enough for me!

Handsome Yusuf cried

Allah is enough for me!

Every night brings a new day

Allah alleviates all pain

Everything has its end

Allah is enough for me!

Everything has its end

Allah is enough for me!

Allah is enough for me!

I have 1001 stories that no one knows of me. Not my family, not my friends, sometimes not even me! Times like this, I just can't open up to anyone for the fear of being judged. And I'll say, "Allah is enough for me".

It's a stage where everything I do, feels so out of place. Everything hurts, and the pain is unbelievably new. I had to keep on telling myself that, "Allah is enough for me" but things are far more complicated than what I thought they were.

It's conflicting my attitude. My behavior. My thinking.

Where did I go wrong?

I need to run away from this confusion and get back to the REAL reality. Am I ready? Am I actually prepared if I were to leave tomorrow?

And what if I wake up in the morning, only with what I thanked Allah of what I have today?
"Allah is enough or me".

Shi.mo.kita.zawa

Shimokitaza (Shimo) is located pretty near to my house and I don't think that this is the first time I've mentioned of this place in this blog. I even had my first birthday party at 2x2=8 after 4 days arriving in Tokyo. Too much memories and I will keep on making them before I'm back for good.

Vintage clothing shop. =)

and I've made cekodok for the first time ever~! and it was good. but oily. >_<"

that's all folks! more random picture coming in. and you can always check 

new.toy.in.the.house.

for more random pictures like this.

Till then, assalamualaikum!

[oh btw, I'm supposed to be writing a 20-pages-report by now and I am procrastinating for the past 3 hours. Now ayam hungry] 

[Khamsa] Jerash, Dead Sea, and Amman, in Jordan

 Fifth album of my trip, and well.. Since I have the SD card of the one in Jordan, I guess I'm gonna upload this first. We went to Jordan after Syria, but until I found that SD card.. ^-^" This place is called Jerash, located somewhere between Irbid and Amman, and we had two very nice kids (Syafiq and Aida) to bring us around. Alhamdulillah everything was just lovely.

  Me and Bonda <3

Oval Plaza

The spacious plaza measures 90mx80m and is surrounded by a broad sidewalk and colonnade of 1st century AD Ionic columns. There are two alters in the middle, and a fountain was added in the 7th century AD. This square structure now supports a central column, which was recently erected to carry the Jerash Festival Flame.

 

Colonnaded Street

Still paved with the original stones – the ruts worn by chariots are still visible – the 800m Cardo was the architectural spine and focal point of Jerash. An underground sewage system ran the full length of the Cardo and the regular holes at the sides of the street drained rainwater into the sewers
 

(*^-^*)

Our tour guide. Oh the talking part was so much fun!

South Theatre

Built during the reign of Emperor Domitian, between 90-92 AD, the South Theatre can seat more than 3,000 spectators. The 1st level of the ornate stage, which was originally a two-storey structure, has been reconstructed and is still used today. The theatre's remarkable acoustics allow a speaker at the centre of the orchestra floor to be heard throughout the entire auditorium without raising his voice. Two vaulted passages lead into the orchestra, and four passages at the back of the theatre give access to the upper rows of seats. Some seats could be reserved and the Greek letters which designate them can still be seen.

Then, we went to the Dead Sea. As most of you would already know about the story of "The People of Lut and The City which was Turned Upside Down". 

 

Prophet Lut (Lot):

According to Islamic and Biblical traditions, the Dead Sea is the site of the ancient city of Sodom, home of the Prophet Lut (Lot), peace be upon him. The Qur'an describes the people of Sodom as ignorant, wicked, evildoers who rejected God's call to righteousness. The people were murderers, thiefs, and openly practiced immoral sexual behavior. Lut perservered in preaching God's message, but found that even his own wife was one of the disbelievers.



Punishment:

God's severely punished the people of this region for their wickedness. According to the Qur'an, the punishment was to "turn the cities upside down, and rain down on them brimstones hard as baked clay, spread layer on layer, marked from your Lord" (Qur'an 11:82-83). The site of this punishment is now the Dead Sea, standing as a symbol of destruction.

Visiting the Dead Sea:

The Prophet Muhammad, peace be upon him, reportedly tried to dissuade people from visiting the sites of God's punishment: "Do not enter the place of those who were unjust to themselves, unless you are weeping, lest you should suffer the same punishment as was inflicted upon them."

The Qur'an describes that the site of this punishment has been left as a sign for those who follow: "Surely! In this are signs for those who understand. And verily, they (the cities) are right on the highroad. Surely! Therein is indeed a sign for the believers." (Qur'an 15:75-77)



If one does visit the Dead Sea, it is recommended to spend time recalling the story of Lut, and how he stood for righteousness among his people. The Qur'an says, "And to Lut, too, We gave wisdom and knowledge; We saved him from the town which practiced abominations. Truly they were a people given to evil, a rebellious people. And We admitted him to Our mercy; for he was one of the righteous" (Qur'an 21:74-75).



 

The Dead Sea is the lowest surface on Earth, at 400 meters below sea level. Pretty scary uh. The road to this place was amazingly beautiful and to know that this is where Allah had punished the people of Sodom somehow took me back to reality.

We headed back to Amman and had this...

oh my. I can't remember the name. >_<"

Oh! It's Falaffel!

The rest of "[Khamsa] Jerash, Dead Sea, and Amman" album can be seen by clicking [here].

The End of First Semester.

It feels just like yesterday that I came back to Japan after the earthquake-tsunami-nuclear radiation tagedy happened, and now I am getting ready to head back home once again. This will be my last summer holiday, and obviously I won't know what will be of me this time next year . I won't be a student anymore for sure to look forward to a new summer holiday.

So many things happened and I realized that I am a very minute hopeless human being that knows nothing about life and the world. Especially about things that I thought I'd never do. Words that I thought I'd never say and people that I never thought I'd never say hi to, let alone be soul-mates.

The term is just too short for me to feel anything.

Like a flying piece of paper,
without a hand to hold it tight,
without a pen to write it's story.

[Bleargh, what's with this emo-poetical piece nih^-^]

The end-semester exam will start soon, and I'm wayyy... lost. I bought my ticket already. How I wish I could stay longer since I have to start counting down till the day I'll leave this country. Leave my house, leave my friends, my teachers..

10th of July.
and I'll be in Melaka for Project Kalsom from 11th till 15th July.
But I'm still thinking of Melbourne, Australia after that but I could'nt  find a place to stay yet. and money.

[IF there's anyone out there who wants to come and visit Japan, or Tokyo, you are invited to come and stay at my place and I will only charge you only for the electricity and water during your visit]  

and there's Bangkok, from the 29th July... for a massage and spa trip!

pastu raya~ ehehe.. puasa dulu.

So, what happened recently?

Madamme Iman came back to Japan to clear out her stuff with her husband and we had a farewell dinner for her.



Picture album [here]

For a looong time I've finally step another foot in Yoyogi-Uehara Mosque which is actually very near to my house. >_<" Less than 10 mins by train.

A.Sunday.of.Love Album [Here]

Firdaus's birthday cake, taken with a new lens borrowed from Quddus-san!

Junior.Firdaus.2x2=8 Birthday Album [Here]

I'm just gonna select good pictures here (read - appropriate) and if you're interested to know the rest, you can click on the album for the rest of the pictures that I've uploaded on Facebook.

With that saying,
I'm gonna play around with this new lens for a while before returning it to Quddus-san. ^-^

An album I'll update frequently to share new pics [new.toy.in.the.house.]