Birthday Gratitute.

Bismillah.

Last year's birthday cake from my best friend, Katsumura Tomoki. I reads "Naria" on the cake. LOL

As of 2nd of October, I've finally turned 24; an age that I dreamed of so much miracle.InsyaAllah. I shall not loose hope.

Though there were only a handful of people who wished me for my birthday, (10 to be exact), I always think that birthday is meant for someone who actually gave birth to you on that day years ago.  (I guess I should get a cake for my mom this year, since I didn't get any ^^")

I only give birthday wishes when I feel like I should, as I am really annoyed with people giving a two-letter wish ;"H.B" on my facebook wall. You really don't have to do it if you're really that lazy. Everyone is getting older, and I bet they'll get sick of hearing the same thing over and over again on that same date every year.

We used to celebrate birthdays so much when we were back in Japan. Now that everyone is basically everywhere, I'm really thankful for such a wonderful time we had, even though it was really simple.

Truly, it's the thought that counts.  

Alhamdulillah,

As I'm going down this lane of being an adult, I've learned that live is not about me. It's about how much you can please the Creator and give a piece of your love to everyone is around you, because love is everywhere. It is meant to be look for and cherished, not to wait for it to come down kneeling in front of you because that would never happen. It will go away, trust me.

 I've got so much to learn, and thhe more I figure out things, the more I realize I do not know that much. Older, meaning that one has to be wiser. (At least one SHOULD be)


& to the most awesome super woman called, mother..

      Mommy, I love you to bits and pieces, and I'm thankful to my bones of what you've sacrificed for me over the long, 24-years-period. I've been a pain in the a** for a while now, and your patience is really too incredible for me to realize. I know you're really worried about my life, especially knowing that I'm not married with a child yet at this age. I can only pray that things will get better, and find you the perfect son-in-law that you've been wanting. ^^*

Thank You so much for giving birth to me 24 years ago. I will be the best of what you want me to be and be your bridge to Jannah, InsyaAllah.

Happy Birthday to me. 


♥
ナリア
"Naria"

[PHOTO-LOG] The wonders of Pasar Malam !

Pasar Malam Senawang in Seremban.

Everything a pasar malam (night market) should have, and it has always been like that for the past.. maybe 15 years?

So many different types of FOOD!

Fruits. Fresh Veggies. Fisheries.

Meats; Chicken. Duck. Beef. etc

Toys. Slippers. Kitchen et toilet utensils.

Clothes...( and ballons!)

and... Jamu.^^


All in one night, one field area, and it's only once a week.

I was super excited, and starting taking pictures of what I can snap without being too obvious.

Suddenly this lady customer asked me, "Adik ni belajar lagi ke?" (Are you still studying?) and I told her that I just recently completed my studies and she replied, "Habis tu nak ambil gambar ni buat apa?" (Then why are you taking pictures?) with an annoyed face.

LOL.

No. me no take pictures of ze customers. That's an invasion of privacy.

There was this uncle at the stall who said, "Ambik la gambar pakcik masuk pesbuk!" ^^ so cute!

Anyway, enjoy!

#bukan senang nak menebalkan muka nak mengambil gambar public activities. Ini baru ambil gambar dengan iphone. Kalau bawak DSLR sejibik, entah riuh satu pasar malam.

君、どうする？

Nadiah's favourite flower saying final goodbye.

心配のない日々がいつくるのだろうか？

一段ずつ上り続けても、死ぬまで終わりのない悩みだよ。

一瞬美しくなっても 、老化するのは当然だ。

その美しさを守っていけるのは自分だけなのか？

そばに居ながら大丈夫って言うだけじゃ足りないよ。

傷ついてもまだ自分で立ち上げるさ。そう、約束する。

離れていても、帰ってこなくても、everything will be alright.

もう泣かないから、 괜찮아요（ケンチャナヨ）。

誰も知らない未来が、今から描こう。

もう戻らない、振り向いても意味がないよ。

そうなの？

一人でいいの？

やり直せるなら、じゃ、もう一度やってみよう？

好奇心満々の自分が怖いのないの。

いつまでも足りない気。

世界の果てまで 、「いいよ」と君に言い続ける。

二人で頑張れる。

一生そばに居てあげる。

自分がどうにも「大丈夫」って言える。

次のステップどうする？

勇気のある君に待ってる。

[PHOTO-LOG] Little Us

To keep things posted even when I'm super tired or busy, I'm just gonna post random photos in my phone and talk about them.

----

Me and Mommy. She said that my dad bought her the dress. Which is one in few. I think it's really pretty. I love this picture.

Me holding Fikah (cousin), Alham (cousin) and Naim.

Naim and baby Nadzmi. They were so cute!

Nadzmi embracing baby Nadzrin.

I took these photos when I was cleaning the boxes from our old house that was infested by 'anai-anai'. Many of the pictures were destroyed.

They never made it online. ^^

This is like, debut photos of me and my brothers when we were small. Where are these cute kids now? I miss them so much.

Jungle Roadtrip with ayah's Pajero.

We traveled so much. We went to Singapore a couple of times, and I love it when we'd go into the jungle for camping! My dad was in this 4x4 thing with his Pajero and we'll go deep into the jungle and cross the rivers, and yes, we got to see wild animals!

In Singapore. Naim at the back, while ayah is holding baby Nadzmi. I remember that dress so much. I look like Nazneen!

Nadzmi loves the little Nadzrin so much.It feels really weird that I don't remember seeing these two kid talking to each other nicely when they were growing up.

Our twin brothers, Nassry (2nd) and Nadzry (1st).

Baby Nasuha (last boy) and me being the eldest with six little brothers.

Back Then

Life was so much simple. Everything was enough. It was never about the material stuff. I don't remember asking my parents about what I want, because I always had this idea in my head that, "No, we can't afford that," I don't feel bad about things. I always make-do with what I have.

Having a barbie-doll is even a great luxury. No, I never had one. I played with them at my cousin's place, or back in Kedah at my grandparents' when we go back for Raya. Most of the toys were bought by my auntie.

Even Dutch Lady's Strawberry Milk was something that I really-really crave for and I never really asked my mom to get me one. Now my mom bought 6-pack of them, and they're always inside the fridge (no, I don't drink them since they're not for me ^^). I'm not the type of kid that will cry at the store and scream on the floor for not getting what I want. My sisters are.

Maybe that's a bad way on how to educate your kids by telling them that, "You can't always get what you want," which is putting a strain of their dreams and capability.

Maybe, "The world is in your hand, you can have everything you want if you work for it, nothing is impossible," is a way better saying that one should tell their kids.

I'm not a parent, just a big sister to 6 boys and 3 girls.

I miss having us not growing up. I miss playing together and go on trips.

We were so dear to each other. When we were little, we spend so much time together that it's so hard for me to swallow that we're really drifting apart nowadays.

I should cherish the time. I still have 3 beautiful little girls with me now.

Me holding Nafeesa, with Nazneen and Nafhani.

♥,
Nadiah