To my friends

Daia, sorry x mention ur name, tikah, sorry x post gambar.. i had some technical problems to do so before. =D anyway, kelas baru habis. later im going to ikebukuro with kak ina for shopping. there's branded stuff selling cheap. dont tell me what i should not buy. kaimonoshimas makes me happy. I wanna be happy. Kat sini cam chotto sabishii. I dont wanna wear the same thing over and over again. I feel dull and boring. Which makes me feel sad. Which is not good. n im hating it. now im crapping. Crapping is a very good rensyu so that i dont forget my english. nihongo is so powerful here that it could kill my english. =P my dad gave me 100minutes of talk time to call people. but unfortunately, i dont even remember a number. I mean, my friends's number. Daym.. Were still waiting for our alien card to siap. Later then, baru boleh buat bank account. Then.... baru la boleh beli phone.. susah sungguh. They bought electric dictionary and mp3 while i didnt. Its not that im saving, ( which i never was..) but i prefer to survey around, to find the best there is, the application, bla bla bla.. and, the look. I want happy coloured things! .. ah. kawai-so. pathetic me of wanting to be happy. Sza's comin! yay! can lepak with her here.. ngee.. cant wait. there's lots of stuff nk pesan kat die. again, sangat happy... ngee.. =D its 3:50pm now. iftar (berbuka) is at 5:10 maybe. gonna go to Masjid Otsuka afterwards.. that'll be after i pgi ikebukuro la kan.. Oh yah, i made friend with this Bali girl. namanya Minami. ueh, practice indon juge dech aQ dsini.. harap nihongna bsa boleh jyozu juga gtu.. aduih, bsa gtg. ja ne. salams to all.

Uh... While things are getting windy.

Days, I dont know if its getting better. I hate to write. Just bcoz this pasokon is in japanese and i couldn understand a thing. Everything doesnst make sense. The more i write, the crazier I've become. The relationship is getting smoother with better understanding of each other. I've forgotten the past easily. Mind what i've said before. I do mean it at then. but now, yeah, i can say that i actually didnt know any better. But at times, when I wanna be alone, I want to accompany by someone I could really talk to. Someone who'se not in my everylife but knows everything about it. Sounds complicated right? Shits happens. Ouh yah, Kak Ina bought me this Tart Berry yg i'll heart her ever for it. Yay! Bday cake atlast! And ouh ya.. Iman n Kak Nor belanja us at Saezariya. Hope i spelled it right. x) Ehsan belanja at this japanese restaurant, which i had no idea what i had there. Cuz its sooo la not what i had in mind of japanese food.. =/ Hmm, think twice, senpaitachi ni mcm sngat best.. I wonder if they're not here before us. Or they're not the person that they are. Things could get worser. Not that im saying now is worse. Getting really well along could take sometime. Maybe, its not-that-so noticeable of me.. But, I can feel that they must be wondering. Or, not at all.. I dont know, I could be very good at reading people, or just pure suck. =P Hmm.. I cud say that I'm quite worried about a friend of ours. We havnt been talking a lot like we used to. I know he have everything to say. To talk to. But, he's not talking to me. I guess.. hmm.. had so no idea what to guess anymore. Quite tired of doing so.. Im trying to go as smooth as possible. Be happy. Mindin business. And where i want this to bring me to. Ouh, yah.. I've decided to strive for ToDai. It aint possible. Its Tokyo Daigaku( University) btw. One of the best as the senpaitachi said. Gambatte. Ngee.. I'll write more as long as this pasokon doesnt mess with me.

Susahnyer

Susah gile la nk add post kat sini... rasa cam nk pindah blog je.. xpe2, ade bnyak tempat lagi boleh tulis.. ngeh2.. kat multiply ada jugak. but then kne la jadi member yer.. okies, ja ne! Ah, my address. hantar la kad raye yer... 309 ABK Yamabuki Ryo, 58-10 ARAKAWA-2 ARAKAWA-KU, TOKYO 116-0002 JAPAN

Re-post

Last night wus my birthday. First time here. In Japan. I had a lot to say. A lot to tell. I need someone to talk to..And i did write 'em in here. Too bad, this laptop that i used, it aint in English. Ended up clicking some crap, n BYE.. Smua hilang. Everything's gone. I miss the chocolate indulgence. I miss the shepard(i spelled it ryte? did'nt i?) pie. I miss Secret Recipe. But most of all, I miss my Family n friends. Having a cake on your birthday is somehow essentials. The senpai brought me to this Pakistan restaurant.?I hate the 'so-called-celebrating' my birthday n being nice to me crap. Or shall I say hipocrite! When we got there, i was placed at the very far end of the group at ANOTHER SINGLE TABLE!! In a very small corner in that SUPER small restaurant! DONT F*KIN TELL ME U GUYS ARE F*KIN CELEBRATIN MY BIRTHDAY! (very sorry for the words yg x sedap tuk dibaca.. ) Hmm.. I can say that they barely talking to me. OPs, sorry, they didnt. They were laughing. Having a good time. Flirting. Match-making. Without me innit. I guess when im feeling messed up, I assumed too much. Negative thinking.. bla2bla.. But u cant blame everything on me. I do care. I do want to be in the group. Too bad then, I wus shutted out. They gave stuff to her. Not us. They help her. Not us. ( Us here is me n her). She was given a phone. Which she doesnt know on how to use 'em. We need passport pictures, they made it for her. They never told me. Im swimming on my own. Let me breathe. If u dont wanna touch me, dont drown me. Lastly I was blamed, for being too cared bout others. I guess I should stop doing that for now. Mindind my own business. Being really independent. I was. Ouh, sorry for blabbing bout how i feel. Im doin OKay here.. Its not that cold. But if its raining.. i felt like freezing to death! Till now, still having cold. My flu somehow x kurang2 lagi. Yesterday I had the placement test. Interview, to ask how far have we studied, 4 paper shiken, kiku shiken (hearing) n another interview to know what's the best class to put us in. I've finishd book one back in Msia. But my result for the shiken is quite low n scary. Maybe they'll put me in class 2. Which will cause me to gambatte more, cuz my basic is not so strong. I dont know, my collegeus, they seem to know more, but they're not helping me. Its not that we have to compete for anything.. Why not just help each other out. Okay,?yes... I am asking for help. I do need one and Im not ashamed to ask for one. But again, sorry for asking too much, cuz they're not giving a hand. My dorm (Yamabuki Dorm) from the class is a about 45 mins of walking and train ride. They have different lines, so have to change train bout 2/3 times. They train systems here are crazy! We got lost tons of times.. But somehow, the ticket cam understand the 'lostness' =P and make us find the way back. Imagine, in a month we have to spend bout RM500 for train ride only. The cheapest is about 130 yen. To them its like RM1 but to us, 3bux per station! So, comeback to my tranportation thigy, from the nearest station, JR Komagome, we have to walk about 20 mins to class... * Everyday like this, Im stick when i come back! Eish, I have more stuff to write, but now have to go to the registration place to make our Alien Card. Taula gaijin.. takyah ah panggil alien.. SUngguh kejam mereka2 ini.. ja Ne! Salam to All.. =)