Mummy in Sabah.

Mummy (my mom yer..bukan mumia) is all the way in Sabah right now.
4 days since friday, doing BTN (Biro Tata Negara).

She just gave birth, last Disember 6th. Now, she's leaving Nafeesa at home with all the other (my siblings) to take care of the baby. Im here, Naim, (the 2nd) is currently in Sibu, Sarawak for his PLKN (3 months of national service). So, the biggest at home would be Nadzmi.(yg sangat tak boleh harap walaupun dah besar gajah, 16 thun)

So, are you shock? Do I sound like im angry?

Not really.

I know they can take care of Nafeesa, and my mom shouldnt be worry about a thing.
My dad was on Yahoo Messanger today, and I asked him hows things at home. Well, Nadzrin (4th one, 14 thun）bathed her, Nassry(6th, 12thun) made the milk and Hani(8th, 7thun) put her to sleep. Done.

Nasuha, (7th, 9yrs old) is the best at calming the baby(dodoi)! That I can assure u. He's very good at it! Pandai tau budak ni masak.. he made the best telur mata, pancakes.. yang ini boleh harap. =D

These boys are actually at their best behaviour when mummy's not around. They'll clean up the house, do the laundry, cook for themself, do the dishes.. everything. Independent. But when mummy is at home, they'll play online games, Wii.. 24/7!

As for today, my dad had some meeting in Shah Alam and he sent the 3 girls to my auntie's house. Now, they want to stay there for the night. Hani wants to play there with the other cousins. Just great.

I wonder how isit to be at home now. Without me, mummy, naim, nafhani, nazneen, nafeesa.
Its like, half full.. or half empty.
I hate the feeling so much! Even when there's only one of us is not at home. I just cant help it. mcm ada yg hilang.. padahal sorang je.

So, just imagine. I can only see them from the CCTV on the internet.
Im all deaf from their voices. I miss the time when they fight, when they play.

Yet, when Im back home, with them, I'll just say
"Can you guys please shut up an go away?! Bisinglahh!!"

Haha.. typical human being.

You never know what you've got till it's gone

What is Zina of the Heart? (Zina Hati)

Since I just learned about this topic yesterday, I don't think I can really explain about it in English, nor can i do it better in Malay.

So, its going to be some 'rojak' again this time, and why not if it's easier for everyone to understand..

Now, let me start with this. Last night, on MSN, I was telling a friend about some 'mixed-up feeling' problem that I used to have quite some time ago. Its nothing personal, and I just want to share that so-called normal teenagers dilemma with him. It's actually not a very good thing to be thinking about, you know "the-other-gender", because in Islam, having a non-muhrim as a 'special' friend is a big no-no.

Thus, he suggested that I should go search the meaning of Zina Hati instead, to kill time. (or shall I say aktiviti yg lebih berfaedah ^-^)

So, what is Zina Hati (heart)? I thought its a feeling where, you imagine or desire to do zina with that someone, and that's just it.

Obviously, that doesn't sound right, and i never thought of myself having done 'zina hati'.ever! NO! Like, eww!! But, I searched again.. going through pages and pages of blogs, websites.. anything on Zina Hati. and found few 'stories' about it.

Unfortunately, its in Malay,(and its quite long, but very interesting!) and I have no intention whatsoever to translate it.

Zina Hati Story 1 
 
Zina Hati Story 2 (Recommended!)

I've forwarded those stories to some of my friends, and Iman gave me some quotes and links about it on msn.

"Tetapi, yang paling bahaya ialah, apabila kita merindui Si Dia, memikirkan-mikirkan tentangnya, kecantinkannya, ketampanannya, sifat penyanyangnya, betapa kecintaannya kepada kita, zina tetap berlaku. Biarpun tidak bersua dari segi pancaindera, hati boleh berzina. Tidak mungkin sesuatu hubungan percintaan itu tidak melibatkan penglihatan, percakapan, pendengaran dan perasaan. Sudah terang lagikan bersuluh, percintaan sebelum berkahwin dan ber ‘couple’ adalah menghampiri zina dan hukumnya adalah HARAM."

-thanks iman!


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Dalil yang lebih kuat menetang hubungan percintaan ini terdapat dalam Surah Al-Israa’(17) ayat 32:

“Dan janganlah kamu mendekati zina; sesungguhnya zina itu adalah suatu perbuatan yang keji dan suatu jalan yang buruk.”

Ini adalah dalil-dalil daripada Al-Quran. Bagaimana pula dengan hadis rasul kita, Nabi muhammad S.A.W? Dalam hadis, baginda rasulullah telah memperincikan jenis-jenis zina. Daripada Abu Hurairah r.a katanya,


Nabi S.A.W. bersabda : “Sesungguhnya Allah Ta’ala telah menetapkan nasib anak Adam mengenai zina. Tidak mustahil dia pernah melakukannya. Zina mata ialah memandang. Zina lidah ialah berkata. Zina hati ialah keinginan dan syahwat,sedangkan faraj (kemaluan) hanya menuruti atau tidak menuruti" 

Hadis kedua; Daripada Abu Hurairah r.a., dari Nabi S.A.W. sabdanya: “Nasib anak Adam mengenai zina telah ditetapkan. Tidak mustahil dia pernah melakukannya. Dua mata, zinanya memandang. Dua telinga, zinanya mendengar. Lidah, zinanya berkata. Tangan, zinanya memukul. Kaki, zinanya melangkah. Hati, zinanya ingin dan rindu, sedangkan faraj (kemaluan) hanya mengikuti atau tidak mengikuti.” -

Taken from a VERY GOOD article from iluvislam.com "Nak couple boleh tak?" (Sangat recommended!) - Jawapan terhadap masalah zina hati.

I'll add up more later on about this topic. Hope it helps! =) Daa! Saya harap, benda ni sedikit sebanyak dapat membantu rakan2 semua untuk menjauhi perkara yang dilarang dalam islam..

Were we like them? When a 10-years-old called you on YM.

Someone called me on YM. I had no idea who'se email isit. Without no hesitation, I answered it. 

  Me: Ni siapa?  
unknown: Saya Zahi.
Me: (Zahi mana pulak ni.. suara mcm budak darjah satu) Eh, Zahi umur berapa tahun?
Zahi: 10 tahun..
Me: (mak eh, 10 tahun dah call aku kat YM?) Mmm..Zahi tak sekolah ke?
Zahi: Sekolah, pukul 2 nanti pegi.
Me: (sekolah petang..? sekolah agama kut..) Dah siap nk pegi skolah dah ke? Baju dah siap? Beg dah siap? (garangnye aku betanya.. mcm ckp dgn adik sendiri.. biasala nadia..)  
Zahi: Dah siap.
. Me: Sekolah agama ya? Nama sekolah apa?  
Zahi: Tak tahu. tak tahu nama sekolah.
Me: (hahh? tu pun tak tahu??) Kat sekolah belajar bahasa arab kan?
Zahi: Ha ah. Tapi tak tahu.
Me: Ape la semua pun tak tahu ni.. Apa nak jadik..?  
Zahi: .........(tidak berkata apa2)  
Me: (nak cakap ape dgn budak ni..? saya blur sebentar. kalau ckp dgn adik sendiri bleh tanya pasal Wii ke.. apa ke) Iman on the other line suruh tanya kalau dia ada abang yg kakkoi(smart). Zahi, mak ayah tahu ke kamu pakai YM ni call orang yg tak kenal?
Zahi: Tau je..
Me: (budak ni, sepatah tanya, sepatah dia jawab) Mak ayah mana? Kerja?
Zahi: Ayah tengah tidur kat blakang. Petang nanti keje kut. Mak keluar.
Me: (budak apakah ini..? 10 tahun dah main YM. saya masih taktau nk ckp apa2)
Zahi: Kamu main myspace tak? Add la saya.  
Me: (hah?? myspace pulak? dia pakai YM ni pun aku dh tkejut. ni suruh add myspace??) Ade je.. add la. nah email. Kamu online ni, tak cakap2 dgn kawan2 ker?  
Zahi: Mana ada kawan2 saya online.
Me: (memanglah.. adik aku online pun main game tak henti2. tapi online la) (since iman suruh tanya, aku tanya jugak) Adik beradik berapa ramai? Abang? Kakak?
Zahi: 3 orang. 2 abang. satu 20 tahun, satu 16 tahun.
Me: (bongsu rupenye..abang pun sama umur dgn aku. sambil2 itu aku pergi menge'check' myspace budak ini) Zahi, dah pukul 2 dah ni.. kenapa tak pegi skolah lagi?
Zahi: Kejap lagi boleh pegi, skolah start pukul 2:30.
Me: Pegi skolah macam mana? Bas? Jalan kaki?  
Zahi: Naik basikal.
Me: Dahla.. keluar la cepat, nanti lambat pulak pegi skolah.  
Zahi: Takpe lambat. Tak kesah.  
Me: Mak tak marah ke pegi skolah lambat. Tak elok tau lambat2 ni. Allah pun marah. (saya dengan perasaannye telah membebel pada dia.. >_<*)  
Zahi: Mak tahu je. Mak tak kesah. selalu je lambat pegi skolah.
Me: Dah2.. pegi skolah sekarang. saya nk masak ni. Bye.. Saya terus end the call.

And 10mins later, dia telefon balik. 

Me: La.... dah pukul berapa ni, tak pegi2 skolah lagi. (It was already 2:25) Kamu memang tak nak pegi skolah yerr??
Zahi: Nak pegi la ni. tgk la myspace saya. bye! 

Omg, budak ni.. dari keluarga mana datangnya dia? Baru 10 tahun dah kerja duduk depan komputer. Seingat aku, tak pernah la aku sibuk2 nk bcakap dgn orang yg tak dikenali dekat ym or sibuk2 suruh org add myspace masa umur 10 tahun dulu.  

Haha.. Inikah aktiviti anak2 kecil zaman kini? I checked his myspace. There, he have tons of pictures of him posing like other normal 'myspace' teenager. He looked so young! He's even younger than my twin brothers! and one of the picture even have a caption that writes "thinking of my love" where he poses with great 'emo'!. The way he dress up, not like any other 10 year old (that i know).

What is happening to young Malaysians? Anak2 bangsa sudah disuap dengan benda2 sebegini. Main myspace, gambar penuh posing sakan.. Pegi sekolah malas. Tanya belajar apa pun tak tahu. Itu baru darjah 4! Emak pegi mana?bapak tidur kat belakang... adeh. 

Saya pulak yg sedih. Im actually quite worried about my siblings too. What will they grow up to be? Will they be the perfect muslims that our prophet had been praying about? This generation doesnt look too good at all to me.

I can only pray, for their well-being. to hope that they will always 'jaga' their 5 times prayers. To behave as a good muslim. Amin.

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