あの場

　この足が、私をどこに運ぶのか？

遠くに行っても、まだまだ行けそう気がする。

自分なりに逃げてもいい。

帰られるとこに。

悲しみのない世界に戻りましょう。

本当の居場所が、

そこしかない。

永遠に。

切望なんてない。

ありだ。ありだ。

自分に極めつけ。

この足が運んでくれるだろう？

どうなっても。

Shi.mo.kita.zawa

Shimokitaza (Shimo) is located pretty near to my house and I don't think that this is the first time I've mentioned of this place in this blog. I even had my first birthday party at 2x2=8 after 4 days arriving in Tokyo. Too much memories and I will keep on making them before I'm back for good.

Vintage clothing shop. =)

and I've made cekodok for the first time ever~! and it was good. but oily. >_<"

that's all folks! more random picture coming in. and you can always check 

new.toy.in.the.house.

for more random pictures like this.

Till then, assalamualaikum!

[oh btw, I'm supposed to be writing a 20-pages-report by now and I am procrastinating for the past 3 hours. Now ayam hungry] 

Climbing trees.

Well, as you can see, I gave this blog a new fresh spring look. Isn't it nice? Baru semangat nak update blog sikit.

I love that flower over there. Every year, that'll be my profile picture of some SNS sites that I'm using and as for my final year in Japan, it is going to be the face of When I'm Here.

I brought back my dad's cam with me this time. I realized that it's gonna be pretty impossible for me to get a new Canon DSLR anytime soon since I've wasted a lot of money on new clothes *ehem. ^-^" and travelling here and there.

This new semester, there's no Iman to be my ear that I can call free of charge from 1am to 9pm, and heret with me to go shopping. So many things are changing, and I find it really hard to get used to all this changes. Somehow, I feel like a little girl, finally getting out to explore the crazy-scary world all by herself.

You just wanna run away from things around you and the easy thing to do is by having a new life. Memang senang. Semua nak baru.

&&Twitter saved my life. in a way. (Tweet away~~~)

Terlalu banyak insecurities and in Twitter, if you don't like it, just unfollow. Easy. Not like Facebook, there's too many 'commitments'. Haha.

Anyway, back to the tittle of this post.

I had to climb a tree for that ONE good picture of my favourite flower that I don't even know what it is called. I shall give it a name myself.

Well, let's take a look at the other pictures first.

 

 Mana nak pegang camera, mana nak pegang pokok, mana nak focus, mana nak tekan. (If I were a squid, sure tade masalah. Haha..)

I really like using manual rather than to set it automatic, (yeah, after months cursing the camera and all bunch of settings that they have!) but when it comes to taking pictures like this, all you need is patient, luck, and faith! ...and hope that the picture will FINALLY turn out alright. Alright is enough. ^-^ Perfect is even better.

hehe.

So, alhamdulillah dapat pun.

Nasib tak baik tak patah kaki jatuh pokok. tehee..



J'aime ce pays.

Alors, looking at it makes you just wanna grab one kan? kan? =)

This is one unique version of unagi dish. The yellow thing is actually cheese. They're incredibly  very oishii (delicious) indeed.

This would be my all time favourite. Nattou-maki. Nattou means fermented soy-beans. I think it belongs to the same family as 'tempe'. It's sticky and quite smelly if you're not used to it. 

The Tokyo Tower. It's interesting that I've been living in Tokyo for the past 4 years and this is the first time ever that I've been to Roppongi to see this tower for myself. ^-^"

and, for the 5th time (or 6th? I don't remember..) I challenged myself for another snowboarding experience. 

where my friends from Malaysia (Hamizah, Sofia, Syadia) and from the UK (Arif) came to visit.

so we went to Disney Sea for the first time,

and had tons and tons of Japanese food for nights,

and the girls finally turned into onigiri, takoyaki, and shoyu (Japanese soy-sauce).

haha.

(I realized that posting super-sized pictures makes me happy. =D)

I had a great new year. and yeah, I'll be posting some about Kampung Tarbiyyah soon enough. Sorry, the exams and reports period was crazy. Now that it's over, Alhamdulillah, live should go back to normal. =)

Zao, Yamagata.

Cinta Terlarang - Orang jepun pun tahu malu.

(A rojak post- by Niea. present tense is used so that you can pretend that you are with me at that time )

5th period feels like it ends at 10pm. Jam 6 pun dah masuk Isyak, keluar-keluar kelas je, kat luar dah malam.

As I walk towards Shibuya station, I see a man and a woman in their work suits walking side by side.
It seems like they are trying very hard to have a little conversation here and there-
but they have to keep up with the busy moving crowd; no place for a chit-chat.
As if, they are whispering, they still keep the distance between them.

Ah..I guess it's not the crowd that keeps them apart then.

( FYI, it's an odd thing to see working couples in the city, mana tahu ada scandal ke apa kan.. ^_^" but they look young; late 20's mungkin)

Back to the story, they are walking in front of me and I can't help to know what's the story behind these two.

Entah bila masa, the guy sways his hand forward and the lady catches it abruptly!

Dengan kasarnya, the guy let go of her hand and shouted, "hazukashiiyo!" which means "it's embarrassing!" and put his hand in his pocket immediately.

Errr.. terdiam sebentar melihat situasi yang sungguh awkward ini.

The lady then keeps on walking align with the guy but she keeps on looking to the ground. Not knowing what to do, how to react. That moment really embarassed her.

Serious, rasa macam nak lari je dari situ so that I won't have to witness all this. But orang ramai sangat tak boleh nak gerak mana.

She keeps on following him even though he never bothers to walk a little bit slow for her. Yes- almost 10 minutes of awkwardness and I am still kat belakang diorang.

Then, one thing happened that made me think that they could actually be a couple..

Before climbing the stairs yang boleh tahan la penat nak memanjatnya, dan sangat-sangat-sangat packed dengan manusia, suddenly he said,

"iiyo",

and she slowly grabs his hand from the back.

As we reach up to the end of the staircase, he let go of her hand and walk fast upfront as if they never knw each other at all. She keeps on following him from behind.

How complicated.

When she manages to catch up with him again, this time he is the one who's trying to touch her hand. But he didn't.

Romantic? I don't think so- because both of them think that it's a shameful act to do in front of the public. They were just trying to control themselves.

This incident really reminds me of a high school couple I saw in Pavilion when I was back in Malaysia for the summer. They were walking so (very) close as the boy's hand was on the girl's hip. Sumpah nak muntah!
Still with school uniform on lagi tu! Dengan batch sekolah pun ada lagi. Ya Allah..

If it were for the Japanese, akan malu besar kalau I dapat tahu which company they are from.

Bonda and I had our treatment at pavilion that day and it was ramadhan. Bonda said to me, "You've been preaching all this while. Now is the time for you to really do something about that (the high school couple). You have a strong reason to give. It's ramadhan anyway".

Subhanallah, Maha Suci Allah, mulut tiba-tiba seperti dah kene lock. Anak kunci macam dah telan masuk perut. Dah kene cerna. Hilang. Rasa nak lari jauh-jauh: buat-buat tak nampak. Suruh la orang lain yang tegur. Tak berani-!

Subhanallah, sungguh itu adalah cubaan pada diri ini yang cukup besar. Allah nak test sikit je. Buat ke tidak. Ada berani nak amal makruf nahi mungkar? Tegur biar dengan hikmah. Tapi sekarang hikmah kemana, apa kemana. Buat-buat tak nampak, level iman tahap mana tu? Begitukah sedemikian keadaannya sekarang ini teman-teman di Malaysia?

Susah nak beramal makruf nahi mungkar?

I was relived to be able to take my eyes off the couple. But, this is Japan. Kafirs that knows the meaning of being shameful of such.

But to the muslims that knows Allah is watching them all the time ? The idea, the thought of doing shameful things pun Allah dah tahu. Belum buat pun lagi. Tak malukah kita pada Allah?

I am ashamed of myself for not being able to say anything. Berani kerana benar. A great lesson learnt. Tak mahu lagi menanggung beban dosa tak mengamalkan nahi mungkar.

Wallahu'alam.

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皆様ー！ こんにちは 久しぶりに日本語で書きたくて、なんか懐かしいなぁ。。 4年間経っても、私の日本語がなかなか上達してなくて、悔しいの！ それでは、今日のトピックに入りまーす 昨日の夜、アメーバピグをやってみた。 楽しかったよ～！マジでー！ ピグもカワイイしさ、たまらなーん 他のピグもカワイくて けど、一つ気づいたのは、みんな寂しそうだった なんかね、声をかけないと友達作れないのよー実際にもそうじゃないのか？ 世界にはいっぱい人がいるよ--日本だって、小ちゃいの。。 ピグを作っても、一人で遊ぶなんて。。かわいそう一人で生きて行けないよ～ピグも同じだ。 いっぱい友達を作ってみな 私もね、ちゃんと理由があるからやってみたのただ遊ぶだけじゃないよー 今日、"世界の一幸せな女性になれる！"という本を読んでいた。 感動的だった！ アッラーが私に数え切れない恵をくれて、本当に心いっぱい感謝してるわーー ますますアッラーのことを好きになったなんかね、会いたくて、会いたくて、会えるかな。。みたいな。 自分が本当に良い人生を歩んできて、感謝しないとね！ だから、アッラーの言うことをちゃんと従うの。ヒジャッブも、お祈りも、説教も、勉強もアッラーのためだよ 大好き！ 正直に言えば、幸せで～す！ また iPhoneからの投稿