Happy New Year 2008

Me and Aqilah. with Sza, Mizah and Arif celebrated New Year's Eve at The Curve.

We didnt manage to snap much pics. Cuz I left my camera at home, and now its broken. But, I think that these pics are good enuf. We did some window shopping, and Mizah had a very messy dinner at Carls Jr., and then we walked all the way from OU to The Curve.

It was my first time celebrating new year in The Curve. I didnt expect the crowd at all.. Seriously, it was chaos. Teenagers were spraying things at each other.., noisy+ annoying attention seekers and bitches with scanty clothing.., what else.. "monkeys" dancing on the pavements.. It was weird to be seeing parents and small children there. Its a no-no place for kids!

Young stupid+ jahiliyah Malays drinking.. Smooching.. what else.. urgh!! The after party was a disaster to me. I cant stand the scene. Rubbish everywhere. I left The Curve at about 3a.m after meeting Ayin. He and his friends.. were DRUNK. Eww.. they reminded me of the japanese after work on Friday night.

Malaysia, what has happened to you? Corrupted by the oh-so Hadhari. Or shall I say, the "new way" of islam. Oh yah.., (nak lari topik sikit..) I went shopping at SOGO yesterday, and I couldnt find anything that 'fits me'. Hahaha... ( Im not THAT fat kayh..) It was the designs. T-shirts, T-shirts.. scanty clothes.. even the long sleeves are short as they reveal the 'ass' badly. x-x"

Look, dont you think that whoever designed those clothes actually have a serious power to control what we wear? People buy whatever that is on the shelves. The cheaper the better. Not many people would really care to design what they "want" to wear. (Hope you get what i mean .. {^o^}v

I shall continue later on. Cya!

Mengapa..

Dah penat nk memikir benda yg sentiasa akan jadi masalah. Semua orang berubah dan hidup perlu diteruskan. Kalau dah susah sangat nak hidup dengan orang lain, jangan kesah la kalau orang tak pedulikan kamu.
Tapi entahlah..

I did crossed the ocean.

Tak faham kenapa perlu untuk jadi sampai macam ni.

Just give me some kind of sign.

Mungkin kita dah tak serasi lagi untuk meluangkan masa bersama. atau

Is this the right place or the right time?

Banglas & Tesco

I went to Tecso last week. There was to many Bangladesh workers that I can barely see local people working in Tesco.

They're trying to cut down the budget I supposed.

So then, when I went to look for spaghetti, I asked a Bangla worker where it is, and he shouted back to me, "No!, No!" and shoved me away. Wow.. wasn't that scary enough to tell you not to ask any Bangla worker anything..? They cant understand any Malay, or English isit? I had no idea.

But that wasnt the only thing that happened. On my way to the car, few minutes before Tesco closes, there was some Banglas (again..) were trying to chase us out from the store. (They were shouting, "Out!,Out!"). I was already on my way to leave the place la, haiyooh! But the BANGLAS didnt tell us that all the west exit was already closed! I had to turn back, to the east exit, pushing the super heavy cart, cursing the stupid Banglas all the way back to my car.

What a waste of time. Seriously, TESCO, if you guys thinks that hiring the Banglas are cheaper, for the quality of the service, its going all the way to the drain.. Somehow, I prefer to shop at Carrefour or Mydin.. Lagi senang hati kut..

13 days have passed.

It hurts a lot when I expect too much.
Reality knocked me on the head. Where did I go wrong?

Just looking at my baby sister would be one of the happiest thing to do. Sitting in front of the tv all day long on the big black sofa, how I wish I can do that. When my mom was out, I had to take care of the baby. Obviously, I cant provide the "baby food", so I ended up carrying her everywhere I go, trying very hard to keep her from crying. Cooking with one hand wasn't easy as I had to set up the dining table as well. I didn't want to complain because I should be thankful about being at home..


Home is great. There's no place like home. But I want to go out too, meet my friends, hang out, go shopping. But as the 13th day passed, things have been.. almost the same. Yeah, I went out with Sza and some of the other girls. Somehow, I still ended up shopping all alone. Ah! Pathetic-nya!!

I went thru a bad chapter with him today. and I want to write about it. It was my first time ever to raise my voice and tell him about how I felt. How angry I was with him. It ended up that, I was the one to blame and things has always been my fault.
I have to admit that I wanted to spend more time with him. I do miss him. I havent really hang out with him for about 2 years or so. When he have to leave even before we really did anything, I was heart broken. The story is not as short nor simple as this. But one thing for sure, I need to repair it. He did the best he can to give me what I want. Entahlah.. it wasn't enough.

Alhamdulillah, I have a great family. At home, I cant shred a tear, nor have the time to even think about any relationship problems. Things are always.. happy. =)

2moro, I'll be going to Singapore InsyaAllah to do some shopping. Again, alone. I can only pray that things will turn out to be fine in days to come.